“I believe you do, only you don’t know it. When I get on the top of yon hill there, it always seems to me such a little way up!--and Mr. Simon tells me I should feel much the same, if it were the top of the highest peak in the Himmalays.” Lady Joan did not reply, and Cosmo too was silent for a time. “Don’t you think,” he began again, “though life is so very good--to me especially with you here--you would get very tired if you thought you had to live in this world always--for ever and ever and ever, and never, never get out of it?” “No, I don’t,” said Joan. “I can’t say I find life so nice as you think it, but one keeps hoping it may turn to something better.” She was amused with what she counted childish talk for a boy of his years--so manly too beyond his years! “That is very curious!” he returned. “Now I am quite happy; but this moment I should feel just in a prison, if I thought I should never get to another world; for what you can never get out of, is your prison--isn’t it?” “Yes--but if you don’t want to get out?” “Ah, that is true! but as soon as that comes to a prisoner, it is a sign that he is worn out, and has not life enough in him to look the world in the face. I was talking about it the other day with Mr. Simon, else I shouldn’t have got it so plain. The blue roof so high above us there, is indeed very different from the stone vault of a prison, for there is no stop or end to it. But if you can never get away from under it, never get off the floor at the bottom of it, I feel as if it might almost as well be something solid that held me in. There would be no promise in the stars then: they look now like promises, don’t they? I do not believe God would ever show us a thing he did not mean to give us.” “You are a very odd boy, Cosmo. I am almost afraid to listen to you. You say such presumptuous things!” Cosmo laughed a little gentle laugh. “How can you love God, Joan, and be afraid to speak before him? I should no more dream of his being angry with me for thinking he made me for great and glad things, and was altogether generous towards me, than I could imagine my father angry with me for wishing to be as wise and as good as he is, when I know it is wise and good he most wants me to be.” “Ah, but he is your father, you know, and that is very different!” “I know it is very different--God is so much, much more my father than is the laird of Glenwarlock! He is so much more to me, and so much nearer to me, though my father is the best father that ever lived! God, you know, Joan, God is more than anybody knows what to say about. Sometimes, when I am lying in my bed at night, my heart swells and swells in me, that I hardly know how to bear it, with the thought that here I am, come out of God, and yet not _out_ of him--close to the very life that said to everything _be_, and it was! --you think it strange that I talk so?”