Was It Right to Forgive? A Domestic RomanceBarr, Amelia E.
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Was It Right to Forgive? A Domestic Romance
Barr, Amelia E.
Fiction
In such homelike confidence the hours passed, until at length the
moment came which released Yanna from her self-imposed repression and
her gracious office of happiness-maker. She had not grudged the
effort, and she had not missed the strength and consolation which any
healthy self-denial imparts. "Your merry heart goes all the day." Yes,
and this truth came from one who knew how much a merry heart may have
to carry. But once within her own room she let all go--all her
heartache, all her wounded love, and wounded self-esteem. She had
hoped, she had surely thought, that Harry would come again; and all
that day her ear and eyes had been on the watch.
Yes, it had been--
"From rosy morn to evening grey
A waiting day; a day of fear,
Of listening for a footfall dear,
That came not."
The watch was over; and she was so weary that she could not weep nor
think nor pray. She could only send one tired hope upward, whose whole
plea was--
"_Because_ I pray not, seek not, give Thou heed."
Now Yanna was built silently on her trust in God, and on the strength
of her day's work. Hitherto, her trust in God had been very like that
of a child who takes its father's love as easily and carelessly as its
daily bread. But her disappointment in Harry had made her cling to the
Never-Failing One with more intelligent reliance. Certainly the loss
of confidence in her lover and his palpable shortcoming had left her
shaken to her inmost being; but she was still erect. No dropping of
daily duty! No folding of her hands to weep! No enervating luxury of
self-pity troubled this girl, whose feet stood on the rock of Eternal
Love, and who had the healthy habit of her ancestors--a frank,
unconscious way of doing her household tasks, without incessantly
looking after her heart, or making inquiry of her feelings.
True, her ear and heart were on the watch for the sound of one step,
and one voice; and she would have been most happy if that ache of
listening had been answered. But the morning passed, and Harry neither
came nor yet sent any message. She dared not hope that the afternoon
would be more fortunate, and yet surely, surely, he would not leave
her without any attempt to make the future possible. Soon after dinner
her anxieties were complicated by a message from Mrs. Wyk, an infirm
lady who was related to Yanna by her mother's side, and to whom Yanna
was accustomed to render many services. Mrs. Wyk sent a messenger to
say that "she had a new novel, and she wanted Yanna to come and read
it to her."
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