Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Love stories; Mate selection -- Fiction
When Lucinda had returned to her bedside duties, Nora wandered about
the house with a soundless tread, taking melancholy note of the
preparations Roger had made for her return. His choice, his taste,
his ingenuity, were everywhere visible. The best beloved of her
possessions from the old house in the country had been transferred
hither and placed in such kindly half-lights as would temper justice
with mercy; others had found expensive substitutes. Nora went into
the drawing-room, where the blinds were closed and the chairs and
sofas shrouded in brown linen, and sat sadly revolving possibilities.
How, with Roger’s death, loneliness again would close about her; how
he was her world, her strength, her fate! He had made her life; she
needed him still to watch his work. She seemed to apprehend, as by a
sudden supernatural light, the extent of his affection and his
wisdom. In the perfect stillness of the house she could almost hear
his tread on the stairs, hear his voice utter her name with that
tender adjustment of tone which conveyed a benediction in a
commonplace. Her heart rose to her throat; she felt a passionate
desire to scream. She buried her head in a cushion to stifle the
sound; her silent tears fell upon the silk. Suddenly she heard a
step in the hall; she had only time to brush them away before Hubert
Lawrence came in. He greeted her with surprise. “I came to bring
your note,” he said: “I did not expect to find you.’”
“Where better should I be?” she asked, with intensity. “I can do
nothing here, but I should look ill elsewhere. Give me back my note,
please. It does not say half I feel.” He gave it back, and stood
watching her while she tore it in bits and threw it into the empty
fireplace. “I have been wandering over the house,” she added.
“Everything tells me of poor Roger.” She felt an indefinable need of
protesting of her affection for him. “I never knew till now,” she
said, “how much I loved him. I am sure you don’t know him, Hubert;
not as I do. I don’t believe any one does. People always speak of
him with a little air of amusement. Even Mrs. Keith is witty at his
expense. But I know him; I grew to know him in thinking of him while
I was away. There is more of him than the world knows or than the
world would ever know, if it were left to his modesty and the world’s
stupidity!” Hubert began to smile at her eloquence. “But I mean to
put an end to his modesty. I mean to say, ‘Come, Roger, hold up your
head and speak out your mind and do yourself justice.’ I have seen
people without a quarter of his goodness who had twenty times his
assurance and his success. I shall turn the tables! People shall
have no favor from me, unless they are good to Roger. If they want
me, they must take him too. They tell me I am a beauty, and I can do
what I please. We shall see. The first thing I shall do will be to
make them show him a great deal of respect.”
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