But Ralph’s picture of what the husband really was
behind his society mask had driven out all gentler thoughts, had filled
the Scotsman’s heart with loathing, had over-clouded his whole world.
Macneillie was, however, before all things, an honest man. He had not
accepted conventionally the first religious truths put before him, he
had thought much, he had waited patiently, had learnt by degrees, and
the hard training of his life had borne its fruit--it was impossible
now, that he should remain for long in darkness. It flashed upon him
that his trouble came from having stepped out of the right order; for a
time he had lost that absolute trust in God’s education of every human
being, which had for many years been his stronghold. The words of
Ralph’s letter came back to him--“brutes like Sir Roderick are enough to
have staggered even your prophet Erskine of Linlathen.”
The name of Thomas Erskine in itself awakened within him a whole train
of memories, for he was one of the many thousands who have been rescued
by the writings of that barrister, laird and saint from falling a prey
to the spirit of unbelief which is the reaction alike from Calvinism and
ceremonialism.
Lying under the shade of the beech-tree, the fresh air from the hills
playing softly about his uncovered head, he tried to picture to himself
what Erskine would have thought of this mistaken marriage, with its
unhappy results, and there came back to his mind a passage in “The
Spiritual Order,” in which the writer spoke of the strange difficulty of
retaining faith in God’s loving purpose when confronted with the evils
of the lanes and closes of great towns which seem to be mere hot-beds of
vice and profligacy. How look on those and still believe that education
was God’s whole purpose in creation? “It would be impossible,” said
Erskine, “did we not also realise that _there is no haste with God_.”
Clearly then it was the imperfection of his own nature, the
weakness--not the strength--of his love for Christine, which made him so
desperately impatient at the thought of her suffering; for her sake
he must learn to be “strong and patient,” learn to love with a diviner
love, to wait with a more perfect trust. The letter had come to him
like a call to arms, he was perfectly conscious that it marked a fresh
turning-point in his life; he had learnt more of Christine and her
difficulties than he had known for years, and the only way in which he
could interpret the meaning of it all was that he should pray for her in
her grievous need more unceasingly than he had yet done.
And so the time passed by, and at the close of the six weeks’ engagement
Ralph returned to Callander for the few days that remained before
Macneillie’s company was to open at Southbourne with “The Winter’s Tale.”
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