Soon afterward my blood and the whole world began to circulate a
thousand times faster; the earth seemed to be flying, light as down.
And within me everything was simple, light and clear. Only then
I noticed on the rock the familiar, enormous letters: M E P H I,
and for some reason the inscription seemed to me _necessary_. It
seemed to be a simple thread binding everything together. A rather
rough picture hewn in the rock; this too, seemed comprehensible;
it represented a youth with wings and with a transparent body, and
in the place ordinarily occupied by the heart,--a blinding, red,
blazing coal. Again, I understood that coal, or no, I _felt_ it as
I felt without hearing every word of I-330 (she continued to speak
from above, from the rock), and I felt that all of them breathed one
breath and that they were all ready to fly somewhere like the birds
over the Wall.
From behind, from the confusion of breathing bodies,--a loud voice:
"But this is folly!"
It seems to me it was I, yes, I am certain it was I, who then jumped
on the rock; from there I saw the sun, heads, a green sea on a blue
background, and I cried:
"Yes, yes, precisely. All must become insane; we must become insane
as soon as possible! We must; I know it."
I-330 was at my side. Her smile--two dark lines from the angles of
her mouth directed upward.... And within me a blazing coal. It was
momentary, light, a little painful, beautiful.... And later,--only
stray fragments that remained sticking in me....
... Very low and slowly a bird was moving. I saw it was living, like
me. It was turning its head now to the right and then to the left
like a human being, and its round black eyes screwed themselves into
me....
... Then: a human back glistening with fur the color of ancient
ivory;--a mosquito crawling on that back, a mosquito with tiny
transparent wings. The back twitched to chase the mosquito away; it
twitched again....
... And yet another thing: a shadow from the leaves, a woven,
net-like shadow. Some lay in that shadow, chewing something,
something similar to the legendary food of the ancients, a long
yellow fruit and a piece of something dark. They put some of it in
my hand, and it seemed droll to me for I did not know whether I
might eat it or not....
... And again: a crowd, heads, legs, arms, mouths, faces appearing
for a second and disappearing like bursting bubbles. For a second
appeared (or perhaps it was only an hallucination?) the transparent,
flying wing-ears....
With all my might I pressed the hand of I-330. She turned to me.
"What is the matter?"
"He is here! I thought, I--"
"Who?"
"S-, a second ago, in the crowd."
The ends of the thin coal-black, brows moved to the temples--a smile
like a sharp triangle. I could not see clearly why she smiled. How
could she smile?
"But you understand, I-330, don't you, you understand what it means
if he, or one of them is here?"
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