All shrunk together and hidden under the awning of my own forehead
like that messenger, I watched them stealthily; they were going from
room to room, beginning at the right end of the corridor. Nearer
... nearer.... I saw that some sat in their rooms, torpid like me;
others would jump up and open their doors wide,--lucky ones! If only
I too, could....
"The Well-Doer is the most perfect fumigation humanity needs,
consequently no peristalsis in the organism of the United State
could...." I was writing this nonsense, pressing my trembling pen
hard, and lower and lower my head bent over the table, and within me
some sort of crazy forge.... With my back I was listening ... and
I heard the click of the door-knob.... A current of fresh air....
My armchair was dancing a mad dance.... Only then, and even then
with difficulty, I tore myself away from the page, turned my head
in the direction of the newcomers (how difficult it is to play
a foul game!). In front of all was S-, morose, silent, swiftly
drilling with his eyes deep shafts within me, within my armchair
and within the pages which were twitching in my hands. Then for a
second--familiar, everyday faces at the door; one of them separated
itself from the rest with its bulging, pinkish-brown gills....
At once I recalled everything that happened in the same room half an
hour ago and it was clear to me that they would presently....
All my being was shriveling and pulsating in that fortunately opaque
part of my body with which I was covering the manuscript. U- came up
to S-, gently plucked his sleeve and said in a low voice:
"This is D-503, the builder of the _Integral_. You have probably
heard of him. He is always like that, at his desk; does not spare
himself at all!"
... And I thought!... What a dear, wonderful woman!...
S- slid up to me, bent over my shoulder toward the table. I covered
the lines I had written with my elbow but he shouted severely:
"Show us at once what you have there, please!"
Dying with shame, I held out the sheet of paper. He read it over,
and I noticed a tiny smile jump out of his eyes, jump down his face
and slightly wagging its tail, perch upon the right angle of his
mouth....
"Somewhat ambiguous, yet.... Well, you may continue; we shall not
disturb you any more."
He went splashing towards the door as if in a ditch of water. And
with every step of his I felt coming back to me my legs, my arms,
my fingers,--my soul again distributed itself evenly over my whole
body; I breathed....
The last thing: U- lingered in my room to come back to me and say in
my very ear in a whisper: "It is lucky for you that I...."
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