New York (State) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
He had been in his time a man and had sowed his measure of wild
oats--more than a poor man could, less than a rich man might, far less
than his unusual opportunities and the greedy throngs of temptresses
encouraged. But he had taken Kedzie seriously, never dreaming how large
a part ambition played in her devotion to him. He had been good to her
and with her. The marriage ceremony had solemnized him further.
He had made a try at secrecy, because he felt shy about the affair. He
knew that his name would lead the newspapers to haze him, as the rustic
neighbors deride a rural couple with a noisy “chivaree.” He dreaded the
head-lines, as a kind of invasion of the bridal chamber.
In any case he had always hated flamboyant weddings with crowds and
splendor. He did not believe that a marriage should be circused.
And thus at last he and Kedzie were united into one soul and one flesh,
for better, for worse, etc., etc. Then they sped away to the remotest
pleasant hotel to be found in darkest Jersey.
Jim registered under his own name, but blushed more hotly than if he
had been engaged in an escapade. He could, perhaps, have taken Kedzie so
with less regret than under the blessing of the clergy. For now he felt
that he owed to her the all-hallowing grace of that utter love which was
something he could not bestow.
She was the first wife he had ever had, and he wished a devoutness in
that consummation. Lacking the sanctifying ardor, he was remorseful
rather than triumphant, feeling himself more of a brute than even a
bridegroom usually feels.
Kedzie did not seem to miss any perfection in his devotion, but he
imputed that more to her innocent kindliness than to any grace of his
own. The more he studied her the more he wondered why he did not love
her more. She was tremendously exquisite, ferociously delicate, and
almighty pretty. She was altogether too delectable, too cunningly
wrought and fragile, for a hulking Titan like him.
He was positively afraid of her, and greatly amazed to see that she was
not at all afraid of him. The moment the parson had done his worst a new
Kedzie had appeared. She took command of everything instantly: ordered
the parson about, shipped her mother and father back to town as if they
were bothersome children, gave directions to Jim's chauffeur in a way
that taught him who was to be who thenceforward, and made demands upon
the hotel clerk in a tone that was more convincing of her wifehood than
a marriage license could have been.
The quality missing in Kedzie was the sense of terror and meekness
expectable in brides. Her sole distress was, to Jim's amazement, the
obscurity and solitude of their retreat. Kedzie was rapturous, but she
had not the slightest desire to hide it from the world. She was Mrs. Jim
Dyckman, and she didn't care who knew it.
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