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She had to have friends and she had to take what she could get. The more
earnest elements of society did not interest her, nor she them. The fast
crowd disgusted her at first, but remained the only one that did not
repulse her advances.
Her first glimpses of the revelers filled her with repugnance and
confirmed her in what she had heard and read of the wickedness of the
rich. The fact that she had seen also the virtuous rich, solemn rich,
religious rich, miserly rich, was forgotten. The fact that in every
stage of means there are the same classes escaped her memory. She had
known of middle classes where libertinism flourished, had known of
licentiousness among the poor shopkeepers, shoddy intriguers in the
humble boarding-houses.
But now she felt that money made vice and forgot that vice is one of the
amusements accessible to the very poorest, to all who inherit flesh and
its appetites.
Gradually she forgot her horror of dissipation. The outswirling eddy
of the gayer crowd began to gather and compel her feet. She lacked
the wisdom to attract the intellectuals, the culture to run with the
artistic and musical sets, the lineage to satisfy that curious few who
find a congeniality in the fact that their ancestors were respectable
and recorded persons.
In the fast gang she did not need to have or use her brains. She did not
need a genealogy. Her beauty was her admission-fee. Her restlessness was
her qualification.
Those who were careless of their own behavior were careless of their
accomplices. They accepted Kedzie without scruple. They accepted
especially the invitations she could well afford. She ceased to be
afraid of a compliment. She grew addicted to flattery. She learned to
take a joke off-color and match it in shade.
She met women of malodorous reputation and found that they were not
so black as they had been painted. She learned how warm-hearted and
charitable a woman could be for whom the world had a cold shoulder and
no charity.
She extended her tolerance from men whose escapades had been national
topics to women who had been involved in distinguished scandals and were
busily involving themselves anew. Being tolerant of them, he had to be
tolerant of their ways. Forgiving the sinner helps to forgive the sin.
There are few things more endearing than forgiveness. One of the most
appealing figures in literature and art is the forgiven woman taken in
adultery.
And thus by easy stages and generous concessions Kedzie, who had begun
her second marriage with the strictest ideals of behavior, found herself
surrounded by people of a loose-reined life. Things once abhorred became
familiar, amusing, charming.
It was increasingly difficult to resent advances toward her own citadel
which she had smiled at in others. She grew more and more gracious
toward a narrowing group of men till the safety-in-numbers approached
the peril-in-fewness. She grew more and more gracious to a widening
group of women, and they brought along their men.
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