It is strange, in tracing the growth of spontaneous love, to notice how
independent it is of time. Love annihilates time with love, as with
God, time is not. Like the miracles, it brings into use the aeonial
measurement in which “one day is a thousand years, and a thousand years
is one day.” A week, even a few hours, may give us love and knowledge
and mutual sympathy with one which the intercourse of many years fails
to give with another.
The week at Oakdene was one which all her life long Erica looked back
to with the loving remembrance which can gild and beautify the most
sorrowful of lives. It is surely a mistake to think that the memory
of past delights makes present pain sharper. If not, why do we all
so universally strive to make the lives of children happy? Is it not
because we know that happiness in the present will give a sort of
reflected happiness even in the saddest future? Is it not because we
know how in life's bitterest moments, its most barren and desolate
paths, we feel a warmth about our heart, a smile upon our lips, when
we remember the old home days with their eager childish interests and
hopes, their vividly recollected pleasures, their sheltered luxuriance
of fatherly and motherly love? For how many thousands did the poet speak
when he wrote
“The thought of our past years in me doth breed Perpetual
benediction.”
A benediction which outlives the cares and troubles of later life which
we may carry with us to our dying day, and find perfected indeed in that
Unseen, where
“All we have willed, or hoped, or dreamed of good shall
exist, Not its semblance, but itself.”
There was only one bit of annoyance during the whole time; it was on the
Sunday, the day before Erica was to go back to Greyshot. Gladys was not
very well and stayed at home, but Donovan and Erica went to church with
the children, starting rather early that they might enjoy the lovely
autumn morning, and also that they might put the weekly wreaths on two
graves in the little church yard. Donovan himself put the flowers upon
the first, Ralph and Dolly talking softly together about “little
Auntie Dot,” then running off hand in hand to make the “captain's glave
plitty,” as Dolly expressed it. Erica, following them, glanced at the
plain white headstone and read the name: “John Frewin, sometimes captain
of the 'Metora.'”
Then they went together into the little country church, and all at once
a shadow fell on her heart; for, as they entered at the west end, the
clergy and the choristers entered the chancel, and she saw that Mr.
Cuthbert was to take the service. The rector was taking his holiday, and
had enlisted help from Greyshot.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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