Erica, returning from the flower show late in the afternoon, found a
note awaiting her, and opened it unconcernedly enough on her way up to
her room. But the first glance at it brought a glow of color to her face
and a nameless fear to her heart. She ran on quickly, locked her door,
and by the ruddy firelight read in a sort of dumb dismay her first offer
of marriage. This then was the meaning of it all. This was the cause of
his hurried return to England; this had brought her the long talks which
had been so pleasant, yes, strangely, unaccountably pleasant. Yet, for
all that, she knew well enough that she had nothing to give in return
for the love revealed in every word of the letter. She liked him, liked
to talk to him, thought him clever and interesting, but that was all.
His wife! Oh, no! Impossible! That could never be! And then, as usual,
even in the midst of her strange sense of discomfort and perplexity,
there came a flash of humor which made her laugh noiselessly in the dim
light. “Tom would call me Mrs. Sly Bacon!”
But a second reading of the letter made her look grave. She was very
much puzzled to know how to answer it; how, in refusing, to give him
least pain. There was nothing else to hesitate about, of her own mind
she was quite sure. There was only an hour till post time. She must
write at once, and she must write in a way which could not be mistaken.
There was not a grain of coquetry about Erica. After some thought she
wrote the following lines:
“Dear Mr. Cunningham, Your letter surprised me very much and pained me,
too, because in replying I fear I must give you pain. I thank you for
the honor you have done me, but I can never be your wife. Even if I
could return your love, which I can not, it could never be right. People
are so prejudiced that the connection of our names might greatly injure
your public work, and, besides, you could not live in the circle in
which I live, and nothing could ever make it right for me to leave my
own people. I can not write as I should like to I can not say what I
would, or thank you as I would but please understand me, and believe me
yours very sincerely, Erica Raeburn.”
Strange enough the writing of that letter, the realization of the
impossibility of accepting Leslie Cunningham's offer, opened out to
Erica a new region, started her upon a new stage of her life progress.
In spite of her trouble at the thought of the pain she must give, there
was an indefinable sense that life and love meant much more than she had
hitherto dreamed of; and, though for the next few days she was a little
grave and silent, there rang in her ears the refrain:
“Oh, life, oh, beyond, Thou art strange, thou art sweet.”
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