In truth, Erica had plunged into work of all kinds, not merely from love
of it, but because she felt the absolute need of fresh interests, the
great danger of dwelling unduly on her sorrow. Then, too, she had just
grasped a new idea, an idea at once noble and inspiriting. Hitherto she
had thought of a happy future for herself, of a home free from troubles
and harassing cares. That was all over now, her golden dream had come
to an end, “Hope dead lives nevermore.” The life she had pictured to
herself could never be, but her nature was too strong to be crushed by
the sorrow; physically the shock had weakened her far more than any one
knew, but, mentally, it had been a wonderful stimulant. She rose above
herself, above her trouble, and life began to mean something broader and
deeper than before.
Hitherto her great desire had been to be free from care, and to be
happy; now the one important thing seemed not so much to be happy, as
to know. To learn herself, and to help others to learn, became her chief
object, and, with all the devotion of an earnest, high-souled nature,
she set herself to act out these convictions. She read hard, attended
lectures, and twice a week taught in the night school attached to the
Institute.
Charles Osmond could not help smiling as she described her days to him.
She still retained something of the childishness of an Undine, and as
they talked she had taken up her old position on the hearth rug, and
Friskarina had crept on to her knee. Here, undoubtedly, was one whom
ignorant people would stigmatize as “blue” or as a “femme savante;” they
would of course be quite wrong and inexpressively foolish to use such
terms, and yet there was, perhaps, something a little incongruous in
the two sides, as it were, of Erica's nature, the keen intellect and the
child-like devotion, the great love of learning and the intense love
of fun and humor. Charles Osmond had only once in all his long years of
experience met with a character which interested him so much.
“After all,” he said, when they had talked for some time, “I have never
told you that I came on a begging errand, and I half fear that you will
be too busy to undertake any more work.”
Erica's face brightened at the word; was not work what she lived for?
“Oh! I am not too busy for anything!” she exclaimed. “I shall quote
Marcus Aurelius to you if you say I haven't time! What sort of work?”
“Only, when you can, to come to us in the afternoon and read a little to
my mother. Do you think you could? Her eyes are failing, and Brian and I
are hard at work all day; I am afraid she is very dull.”
“I should like to come very much,” said Erica, really pleased at the
suggestion. “What sort of books would Mrs. Osmond like?”
“Oh, anything! History, travels, science, or even novels, if you are not
above reading them!”
“I? Of course not,” said Erica, laughing. “Don't you think we enjoy
them as much as other people? When there is time to read them, at least,
which isn't often.”
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