Erle was working himself up into quite a virtuous fit of indignation
on Fay's behalf; but presently he became secretly anxious. Before the
end of his visit he grew afraid that more was amiss with Hugh than he
at first guessed. He had often stayed with him before, and Hugh had
visited them at Belgrave House, but he had never noticed any sign of
self-indulgence.
He thought Hugh was beginning to take more wine than was good for him.
He complained of sleeping badly, and had recourse to narcotics. He was
reckless of his health too, and worked often far into the night, and
when Erle remonstrated with him, he only said he could not sleep, and
he might as well occupy himself.
But in reality he never guessed, except in a vague way, the real
reason for this change in his cousin. He would have been shocked and
startled if he had known the strange morbid fever that was robbing
Hugh of all rest.
He was hungering and thirsting for the sight of a face that he said to
himself he had better never look on again; his very nearness to
Margaret kept him restless, and made his life intolerable.
What a fool he had been to marry, he told himself; to let that child
bind him down to this sort of life. If he could only break away for a
time--if he could travel and try what change would do for him; but
this quiet existence was maddening.
He was trying his fine constitution terribly, and he knew it. He would
tire himself out riding over his estate, and then sit up over his
letters and accounts half the night, till his brain seemed stupefied,
and yet he had no wish for sleep.
Erle told him he looked haggard and ill, but Sir Hugh only laughed at
him; there was nothing the matter, he said, carelessly; he was tough,
like all the Redmonds, and he had never been ill in his life. If he
only slept better he should be all right, but want of sleep plays the
very deuce with a man, and so on.
"If I were you, I should not touch spirits or narcotics," observed
Erle, quietly; "your nerves are a little out of order. You should take
things more easily, and not sit up so late; one can form the habit of
sleep." But Hugh only scoffed at the notion of nerves, and during his
long visit Erle saw little improvement.
He was thankful, and yet puzzled, to see that Fay did not notice the
sad change in her husband. Now and then she would say to him rather
timidly, as though she feared a rebuff, "You are not quite well
to-day, are you, Hugh? Your hand is so hot and dry; do stay quietly
with me this morning, and I will read you to sleep;" but Hugh only
laughed at her anxious face.
"Run away, my pet, for I am busy," he would answer. "If you want a
companion, here is this idle fellow, Erle, who never did a stroke of
work in his life, I believe;" and Fay would go away reluctantly.
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