England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Wessex (England) -- Fiction
She watched him safely through the gate; and when his footsteps had
died away upon the road, closed the door softly and returned to the
room. Here the modest widow long pondered his speeches, with eyes
dropped to an unusually low level. Barnet’s urbanity under the blow of
her refusal greatly impressed her. After having his long period of
probation rendered useless by her decision, he had shown no anger, and
had philosophically taken her words as if he deserved no better ones.
It was very gentlemanly of him, certainly; it was more than
gentlemanly; it was heroic and grand. The more she meditated, the more
she questioned the virtue of her conduct in checking him so
peremptorily; and went to her bedroom in a mood of dissatisfaction. On
looking in the glass she was reminded that there was not so much
remaining of her former beauty as to make his frank declaration an
impulsive natural homage to her cheeks and eyes; it must undoubtedly
have arisen from an old staunch feeling of his, deserving tenderest
consideration. She recalled to her mind with much pleasure that he had
told her he was staying at the Black-Bull Hotel; so that if, after
waiting a day or two, he should not, in his modesty, call again, she
might then send him a nice little note. To alter her views for the
present was far from her intention; but she would allow herself to be
induced to reconsider the case, as any generous woman ought to do.
The morrow came and passed, and Mr. Barnet did not drop in. At every
knock, light youthful hues flew across her cheek; and she was
abstracted in the presence of her other visitors. In the evening she
walked about the house, not knowing what to do with herself; the
conditions of existence seemed totally different from those which ruled
only four-and-twenty short hours ago. What had been at first a
tantalizing elusive sentiment was getting acclimatized within her as a
definite hope, and her person was so informed by that emotion that she
might almost have stood as its emblematical representative by the time
the clock struck ten. In short, an interest in Barnet precisely
resembling that of her early youth led her present heart to belie her
yesterday’s words to him, and she longed to see him again.
The next day she walked out early, thinking she might meet him in the
street. The growing beauty of her romance absorbed her, and she went
from the street to the fields, and from the fields to the shore,
without any consciousness of distance, till reminded by her weariness
that she could go no further. He had nowhere appeared. In the evening
she took a step which under the circumstances seemed justifiable; she
wrote a note to him at the hotel, inviting him to tea with her at six
precisely, and signing her note ‘Lucy.’
In a quarter of an hour the messenger came back. Mr. Barnet had left
the hotel early in the morning of the day before, but he had stated
that he would probably return in the course of the week.
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