“Yours cordially and sincerely,
“JULIE MEREDITH.”
This was the letter which the cruel woman had written, and it dropped
from the rector’s fingers, as, with a groan, he bent his head upon the
back of a chair, and tried to realize the magnitude of the blow which
had fallen so suddenly upon him. Not till now did he realize how, amid
all his doubts, he had still been sure of winning her, and the shock was
terrible.
He had staked his all on Anna, and lost it; the world, which before had
been so bright, looked very dreary now, while he felt that he could
never again come before his people weighed down with so great a load of
pain and humiliation; for it touched the young man’s pride that, not
content to refuse him, Anna had chosen another than herself as the
medium through which her refusal must be conveyed to him. He did not
fancy Mrs. Meredith. He would rather she did not possess his secret, and
it hurt him to know that she did.
It was a bitter hour for the clergyman, for strong and clear as was his
faith in God, he lost sight of it for a time, and poor, weak human
nature cried:
“It’s more than I can bear.”
But as the mother does not forget her child, even though she passes from
its sight, so God had not forgotten, and the darkness broke at last and
the lips could pray again for strength to bear and faith to do all that
God might require.
“Though He slay me I will trust Him,” came like a ray of sunlight into
the rector’s mind; and ere the day was over he could say with a full
heart, “Thy will be done.”
He was very pale, and his lip quivered occasionally as he thought of all
he had lost, while a blinding headache, induced by strong excitement,
drove him nearly wild with pain. He had been subject to headaches all
his life, but he had never suffered as he was suffering now but once,
and that on a rainy day in Rome, when, boasting of her mesmeric power,
Lucy had stood by him, and passed her hands soothingly across his
throbbing temples.
How soft and cool they were,—but they had not thrilled him as the touch
of Anna’s did when they hung the Christmas wreaths and she wore that
bunch of scarlet berries in her hair.
That time seemed very far away, farther even than Rome and the moonlight
nights of Venice. He did not like to think of it, for the bright hopes
which were budding then were blighted now, and dead; and with a moan, he
laid his aching head upon his pillow, and tried to forget all he had
ever hoped or longed for in the future.
“She will marry Thornton Hastings. He is a more eligible match than a
poor clergyman,” he said, and then, as he remembered Thornton’s letter,
and that his man Thomas would be coming soon to ask if there were
letters to be taken to the office, he arose, and going to the study
table, wrote hastily:
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