Not a muscle changed as she said this, neither did her voice tremble,
but rang out clear and decided, and it may be a little sharp and
unnatural. Dora was very calm, far more so than the Squire, who, taken
by surprise, started, and trembled, and blushed, and stammered like some
guilty school-boy. This state of things, however, lasted only for a
moment, and then rousing himself, Squire Russell drew the unresisting
girl to his side, and kissing her forehead, said tenderly:
“God bless you, Dora. You have made me very happy. I was beginning to
think it could not be, and was learning to live without you, but that
makes my joy the greater. God bless my Dora, and show me how to make her
happy!”
Had the Squire followed the promptings of his nature he would have
caressed her lovingly, just as he did Margaret when she stood thus
beside him; but remembering Johnnie’s warnings, he desisted, and it was
well he did, else Dora had hated him. Now she suffered him to wind his
arms around her, while he told her again how happy she had made him, and
blessed her for it.
“Dora,” he said, and now he smoothed her hair, “a man of forty is not
called old, and I am only that, but I am fourteen years your senior,
while my six children make me seem older still, but my heart is young,
and I will try so hard to stay with you till you too are old. I’ll go
with you wherever you wish to go, do anything you like, and never frown
upon the things which I know young girls love. I will not be an ogre
guarding my girlish wife, but a proud, happy husband, doing that wife’s
bidding.”
Dora could not repress her tears, he spoke so kindly, so earnestly, and
she knew he meant all he was saying, while she was deceiving him. She
did not think either that she was doing very wrong in thus deceiving
him. It was her duty to be his wife, and it was not her duty to analyze
her feelings in his sight, unless he asked her for such analysis, which
he was not likely to do, for his was not a mind quick to perceive, while
suspicion was something to which he was a total stranger. He had always
admired Dora, and latterly he had learned to love her devotedly, feeling
now that his affection was in part returned, else she had not
deliberately come to him and said, “I will be your wife.” It made him
very happy to know she had said so, and in his happiness he failed to
notice the pallor of her face, the drooping of her swollen eyelids, and
her apparent wish to get as far from him as possible. Margaret had never
been demonstrative, and he hardly expected Dora to be different, so the
poor, deluded man was satisfied, and when Dora, who would have
everything settled at once, said to him:
“We will wait a year,—till next autumn,” he knew what she meant, and
answered readily.
“Yes, if you like, though Margaret said it did not matter how soon, the
earlier the better for the children’s sake.”
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