“I cannot remember the time when I did not love Anna,” he said, fixing
his eyes upon the ceiling. “As a boy I made no secret of it, but as I
grew older I pretended not to care for her more than for any other, and
called her a little doll, you know, but it was mere pretense, for I
loved the very air she breathed; and when I heard she was engaged to
Dick, I cried as young men of twenty-two seldom cry. You know I had then
been in New York two years, and that soon after this I was received into
Uncle Jason’s employ, and trusted by him with everything. For my
father’s sake, he trusted me, he used to say, never dreaming how unlike
the father was the son.
“After losing Anna I cared little for my self-respect, and then first
commenced the process of taking five or ten dollars, as I chanced to
need it. This I always replaced, and so conscience was satisfied,
particularly after I found that other young men, who stood as well as
myself, did the same. I cannot account for it, but I now believe that my
apparent indifference to Anna attracted rather than repelled her, for
when I was at home I used to try the experiment of being very attentive,
just to see how she would brighten with pleasure, but it was not until
my last visit, made the August before I ran away, that the idea entered
my brain of taking her from Richard. He was gone for two weeks, you will
remember, and I improved my time to so good advantage that when I
finally left Morrisville, I had won a half promise from Anna that she
would talk with him and ask to be released. She did not promise this
willingly, for her strong sense of right made her question the justice
of such an act, and all my arguments were necessary to wring that
promise from her. We were out in the graveyard, Dick on that little
bench,—you know where.”
“Yes, I know;” and Richard’s reply was like a groan, as Anna and Dora
came up before him, connected with that rustic bench.
“It was a moonlight night, and we stayed there a long, long time, mother
thinking we were at some neighbor’s house, while you, my brother, were
away, never dreaming how falsely I was dealing with you. But Anna
thought of you, pleading most for you, even while she confessed her love
for me, and saying that daily interviews with you made you more like her
brother. And there I had the advantage; I was comparatively a stranger,
while the city air and manner I had studied to acquire were not without
their effect on Anna. She was almost an angel, but human still, and so
the old story was again repeated. The city fop, with sin enough upon his
soul to have driven that pure young girl from his sight forever, could
she have known it, was preferred to the country boy. But it was hard
work, and more than once I gave up in despair, as, wringing her little
hands, she cried:
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