A moment after Dr. West held in his hand a worn, yellow paper, on which
were traced the last words ever written by the unfortunate Anna, words
which made the doctor’s chest heave with anguish as he read them, while
his mother sobbed hysterically. A part of this letter we transcribe for
the reader:
* * * “I am in a mad-house, darling, where are so many, many crazy
people, and they say that I am crazy too. It’s only the secret in my
head and heart which makes them burn so cruelly. Richard and mother
brought me here. Poor Richard looks so white and sorry, and speaks so
kindly of you, wondering where you are, that once I bit my tongue until
it bled, to keep from telling what I knew. If I had not promised with my
hand upon the Bible, I am sure I should tell, but that oath haunts me
day and night, and I dare not break it, so now I never talk, and I was
glad when they brought me here, for it was safer so. It was dreadful at
first, and sometimes I most wished I could die, but God is here just as
He is in Morrisville, and at last I prayed to Him as I used to do. You
see I forgot to pray for a while, it was so terrible, and I thought I
was lost forever, but I’ve found God again, and I don’t mind the
dreadful place. Everybody is kind to me, everybody says ‘poor girl,’ and
you need not worry because I am here. I pray for you every minute, and
God will hear and save you, because He has promised, and God never lies.
Dear, darling Robert, if I dared tell you something, it might perhaps
bring you home to spare me from the shame which is surely coming, unless
I tell, and that I’ve sworn not to do. It makes me blush to write it,
and so I guess I won’t; but just imagine, if I was your wife before all
the world, and we were living somewhere alone, and Richard did not love
me, as I know he does, and folks called me Mrs. West instead of poor
Anna, and you always hurried home at night to see me, wouldn’t it be
nice if we had a little baby between us to love, you because it was
Anna’s, and I because it was Robert’s! But now, O Robert, what shall I
do, with you away, and that Bible oath in my heart. God will help me, I
hope, and perhaps take me home to him, where they know I am innocent.
Poor Richard, I pity him most when he comes to know it, but God will
care for him, and when I am gone he will find some other one more worthy
than I for him to love.
“There came a young girl here yesterday, not to stay, for her brains all
were sound, but with some more to look at us, and as they reached my
door I heard the attendant whisper something of me, while the stranger
came up to me and said:
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