What Will He Do with It? — CompleteLytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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What Will He Do with It? — Complete
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
Waife and Sophy were alone in the cottage parlour, Mrs. Gooch, the
bailiff’s wife, walking part of the way back with the good couple, in
order to show the Mayor a heifer who had lost appetite and taken to
moping. “Let us steal out into the back garden, my darling,” said Waife.
“I see an arbour there, where I will compose myself with a pipe,--a
liberty I should not like to take indoors.” They stepped across the
threshold, and gained the arbour, which stood at the extreme end of
the small kitchen-garden, and commanded a pleasant view of pastures
and cornfields, backed by the blue outline of distant hills. Afar were
faintly heard the laugh of the Mayor’s happy children, now and then a
tinkling sheep-bell, or the tap of the woodpecker, unrepressed by the
hush of the Midmost summer, which stills the more tuneful choristers
amidst their coverts. Waife lighted his pipe, and smoked silently;
Sophy, resting her head on his bosom, silent also. She was exquisitely
sensitive to nature: the quiet beauty of all round her was soothing a
spirit lately troubled, and health came stealing gently back through
frame and through heart. At length she said softly, “We could be so
happy here, Grandfather! It cannot last, can it?”
“It is no use in this life, my dear,” returned Waife, philosophizing,
“no use at all disturbing present happiness by asking, ‘Can it last?’
To-day is man’s, to-morrow his Maker’s. But tell me frankly, do you
really dislike so much the idea of exhibiting? I don’t mean as we did in
Mr. Rugge’s show. I know you hate that; but in a genteel private way, as
the other night. You sigh! Out with it.”
“I like what you like, Grandy.”
“That’s not true. I like to smoke; you don’t. Come, you do dislike
acting? Why? you do it so well,--wonderfully. Generally speaking, people
like what they do well.”
“It is not the acting itself, Grandy dear, that I don’t like. When I am
in some part, I am carried away; I am not myself. I am some one else!”
“And the applause?”
“I don’t feel it. I dare say I should miss it if it did not come; but
it does not seem to me as if I were applauded. If I felt that, I should
stop short, and get frightened. It is as if that somebody else into whom
I was changed was making friends with the audience; and all my feeling
is for that somebody,--just as, Grandy dear, when it is over, and we two
are alone together, all my feeling is for you,--at least (hanging her
head) it used to be; but lately, somehow, I am ashamed to think how I
have been feeling for myself more than for you. Is it--is it that I am
growing selfish? as Mr. Mayor said. Oh, no! Now we are here,--not in
those noisy towns,--not in the inns and on the highways; now here, here,
I do feel again for you,--all for you!”
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