What Will He Do with It? — Volume 03Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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What Will He Do with It? — Volume 03
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
"You are my little angel, you are," said Waife, tremulously. "Selfish!
you! a good joke that! Now you see, I am not what is called
Demonstrative,--a long word, Sophy, which means, that I don't show to you
always how fond I am of you; and, indeed," he added ingenuously, "I am
not al ways aware of it myself. I like acting,--I like the applause, and
the lights, and the excitement, and the illusion,--the make-belief of the
whole thing: it takes me out of memory and thought; it is a world that
has neither past, present, nor future, an interlude in time,-an escape
from space. I suppose it is the same with poets when they are making
verses. Yes, I like all this; and, when I think of it, I forget you too
much. And I never observed, Heaven forgive me! that you were pale and
drooping till it was pointed out to me. Well, take away your arms. Let
us consult! As soon as you get quite, quite well, how shall we live?
what shall we do? You are as wise as a little woman, and such a careful,
prudent housekeeper; and I'm such a harumscarum old fellow, without a
sound idea in my head. What shall we do if we give up acting
altogether?"
"Give up acting altogether, when you like it so! No, no. I will like it
too, Grandy. But--but--" she stopped short, afraid to imply blame or to
give pain.
"But what? let us make clean breasts, one to the other; tell truth, and
shame the Father of Lies."
"Tell truth," said Sophy, lifting up to him her pure eyes with such
heavenly, loving kindness that, if the words did imply reproof, the eyes
stole it away. "Could we but manage to tell truth off the stage, I
should not dislike acting! Oh, Grandfather, when that kind gentleman and
his lady and those merry children come up and speak to us, don't you feel
ready to creep into the earth?--I do. Are we telling truth? are we
living truth? one name to-day, another name to morrow? I should not
mind acting on a stage or in a room, for the time, but always acting,
always,--we ourselves 'make beliefs!' Grandfather, must that be? They
don't do it; I mean by they, all who are good and looked up to and
respected, as--as--oh, Grandy! Grandy! what am I saying? I have pained
you."
Waife indeed was striving hard to keep down emotion; but his lips were
set firmly and the blood had left them, and his hands were trembling.
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