When shadows dieSouthworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
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When shadows die
Southworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
American fiction -- 19th century
“‘Ah, madame!’ he sighed. ‘You know so little of the world! So little of
the world!’
“‘Mr. Anglesea, you distress me. Has anything happened to Saviola?’
“‘Ah, madame, you were but a child when you went off to marry the
Italian. I—knowing full well that I could not prevent that mad act which
was sure to take place—went with you, for your sake, for your brother,
my friend’s sake, to prevent any fatal error from being committed. I
thought I had prevented calamity to you. I know better now. Ah, yes!’
“‘Mr. Anglesea,’ I said, ‘you frighten me. What has happened? I implore
you to tell me.’
“‘Not now! I cannot! But do not be alarmed! Take courage! I am your
friend! I will see you through this trouble.’
“‘No! you must tell me—now! Has—has—has——’ I could scarcely bear to put
the question; but I nerved myself to do it. ‘Has Luigi left me—deserted
me?’ And I sank back and covered my burning face with my hands.
“‘How shall I answer your question, madame? But put the question rather
to your own intelligence. He left here six weeks ago. He has not
returned or written to you since. Any one less youthful, innocent and
inexperienced than yourself would draw inferences from these
circumstances. Will you excuse me now? I will see you this evening. May
I?’
“‘Yes,’ I answered, mechanically.
“He bowed and left the room.
“I was alone again. I wished to be alone to collect my thoughts. It had
never occurred to me that Saviola would desert me—never!
“He had ceased to be my king, my hero, my idol. He had revealed himself
to be a gambler, a sharper, an adventurer. I had long ceased to love,
trust, or respect him. Still, I knew that he was fond of me, in his way,
and so I never imagined that he could forsake me. And, now that the
possibility was presented to me, it filled me with more wonder than
sorrow or mortification.
“I was not nearly so much troubled by the possible desertion of Saviola
as I had been by the long silence and fancied implacability of my
father. I was sorry for Saviola only because, though I had ceased to
love, or trust, or respect the man, I had begun to compassionate him. He
seemed so much weaker than I was.
“With this feeling of pity and regret was mingled one of intense relief.
I had so little to lose in losing the man whose life was a constant
source of shame and fear to me! But, whatever he may have been, his rank
was unquestionable. I had been lawfully married to him, and I was the
Princess Saviola. And my son was Prince Rolando Saviola. No one could
deprive us of these old and honorable, though now empty, titles.
“I soon reconciled myself to my desertion, even if I did not rejoice in
my deliverance. I made up my mind to take my child and go directly to
Weirdwaste, my own inheritance from my mother, and there await my
father’s return to England; then confess the whole truth to him and
throw myself upon his love and his protection.
“But, ah, Heaven! I did not yet know the worst!”
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