Where England sets her feet: a romanceCapes, Bernard
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Where England sets her feet: a romance
Capes, Bernard
Adventure stories; Great Britain -- History -- Elizabeth, 1558-1603 -- Fiction; Historical fiction
His voice broke: he had spoken spasmodically, and with great emotion,
and the effort seemed to have exhausted him. But to Brion’s young soul
the confession had brought a tragic resignation which was almost like
peace after storm. Long half-suspecting the truth, he knew now what he
was, and what he could never be. His brain was busy as he knelt. To
make a name or inherit one--which was the nobler? He could be anything
in the wide world but that one thing, and that one thing was the one
thing in the wide world no child of earth could ever achieve for
himself. There was no question of personal credit connected with it,
and he would be a poor moralist who should hold him to blame for
another man’s fault. So reasoned the sane young philosopher. He could
be all that he chose, except the one thing in which he had no choice,
and he was not debarred by that single exception from the best thing
of all, which was certainly self-respect. For his own sweet erring
mother he felt the tenderest love and pity; towards the instrument of
her undoing nothing but animosity. No ethical qualms moved him there;
bad was bad, by whatever name you called it.
‘He gave my mother to shame,’ he said, presently and quietly, in
answer to his Uncle’s last appeal: ‘and I shall ever hate him for it.’
‘Hush, boy!’ said Bagott, lifting his head. ‘You know not what you
say, or of whom you speak.’
‘Do I not, Uncle? His name was uttered that day by one that served
him, and whom he struck for revealing it.’
‘My God! was it so? Nathless you must not hate him. It is not for the
lamb to hate the bear--nay, the royal lion himself, as may come to
hap. Forget him, an thou canst do naught else. On thy life never
breathe his name in choler. The air is as full of ears as he of power.
Have I not reason to hate him too; yet for thy sake will I put him and
his misdeeds from my mind.’
Brion did not answer; but after a moment he rose to his feet, and
stood erect before the seated figure. He would keep his own proud
counsel thenceforth, in all matters affecting his honour and duty. His
head was lifted, his eyes shone; before their authority the other’s
blinked and were lowered.
‘Uncle,’ he said: ‘what for my sake thou mayst do I might not for my
own. Yet for what for my sake thou hast done, my love and gratitude
shall endeavour. Hast thou not been my better father, and from the
first?’
‘From the first, boy: I made thee my charge to sorrow and to silence.
Yet, though I planned to consign thee to oblivion, my thoughts pursued
thee. Thou wert the last of us--her child. I could not forget that nor
thee; and when curst Fortune made of my life a ruined waste--Ah, what
disgrace on thee like mine! ’Twas then in bitter self-scorn I first
claimed thee kinsman; for was I not done honour in the connexion?’
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