“I came down to say some pretty sharp things to you,” he went on.
“But, now that I’m with you, I don’t seem able to get them out. But
they’re there all the same, Beatrice, and I’ll act on ’em when I get
away. I’m sure I will.”
“Well?” said she. An expert in woman’s ways would have gathered from
the accent she put into the word and from her accompanying manner that
this young woman had decided the time had come to make it easy for
Hanky to unburden himself.
“You’re not treating me right,” he burst out. “You don’t give me
the--the respect that everybody else does; the--the consideration that
I’ve been used to.”
“For instance?”
Peter walked in silence beside her for some distance; these matters
of which his sense of personal dignity was compelling him to complain
were difficult to put into words that would not sound priggish and
conceited. Finally, he made a beginning: “Of course, you’re a splendid
girl--the best I know--and that’s the reason I want you. There isn’t
anybody else who combines all the advantages as you do. But--honestly,
Beatrice, isn’t the same thing true of me?”
He looked at her, with his mind and his face ready to resent evidences
of her familiar mockery. But she was gazing ahead, eyes serious and
sweet mouth free from any hint of a smile. “Go on, Hanky,” said she
encouragingly.
Peter felt that at last he was coming into his own. With a great deal
more confidence he proceeded: “You make me feel as if--as if I were
cheapening myself--hanging after you this way, taking things off you I
wouldn’t take off anybody else on earth.”
“For instance?”
“Why, this engagement. There’s hardly a girl in New York--in our
set--who wouldn’t jump at the chance. That isn’t conceit. It’s fact.”
“It’s both, Hanky,” conceded the girl, without reserve. She looked at
him, asked gravely: “Do you really want to marry me?”
“Haven’t I told you?”
“When I don’t love you?”
“I’ve been thinking about that,” said Peter, with a notable air
of experienced man of the world. “And it seems to me you’re only
showing what a fine girl you are. I’d be inclined to shy off from a
girl who loved me before we were married. I like delicacy--and--and
reserve--and purity--in a--a _lady_. By Jove, it seems to me there’s
something kind of--of brazen and forward in a girl’s giving way to her
feelings--when--when--she’s not supposed to know about that kind of
thing. It’s--it’s--well, it smacks of the lower classes. They go in
for that sort of thing--they and the sort of women one doesn’t talk
about.”
A long silence followed this outburst of upper-class philosophy. Peter
was revolving what he had said, with increasing admiration for his own
acumen. As for Beatrice, after a fleeting smile of derision which he
did not see, she resumed her own distinct line of thought. She looked
at him several times--a scrutinizing look--a look of appeal--a look of
doubt. Finally she said with some effort: “Peter--suppose I told you I
loved another man?”
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