Inheritance and succession -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“Madame Suzanne, I wish to speak to you,” said Giovanna. “At Bruges I
was never of any account; they said the child was more gentil, more sage
with Gertrude. Well; it might be he was; they said I knew nothing about
children, that I could not learn--that it was not in my nature; things
which were pleasant, which were reassuring, don’t you think? That was
one of the reasons why I came away.”
“You did not show much power of managing him, it must be confessed, when
you came here.”
“No,” said Giovanna, “it was harder than I thought. These babies, they
have no reason. When you say, ‘Be still, I am thy mother, be still!’ it
does not touch them. What they like is kisses and cakes, and that you
should make what in England is called ‘a fuss;’ that is the hardest,
making a fuss; but when it is done, all is done. Voilà! Now, he loves
me. If Gertrude approached, he would run to me and cry. Ah, that would
make me happy!”
“Then it is to spite Gertrude”--Miss Susan began, in her severest voice.
“No, no; I only contemplate that as a pleasure, a pleasure to come. No;
I am not very fond of to read, like you, Madame Suzanne; besides, there
is not anything more to read; and so I reflect. I reflect with myself,
that not to have love with one’s child, or at least amitié, is very
strange. It is droll; it gives to think; and people will stare and say,
‘Is that her child?’ This is what I reflect within myself. To try before
would have been without use, for always there was Gertrude, or my
belle-mère, or some one. They cried out, ‘G’vanna touch it not, thou
wilt injure the baby!’ ‘G’vanna, give it to me, thou knowest nothing of
children!’ And when I came away it was more hard than I thought. Babies
have not sense to know when it is their mother. I said to myself, ‘Here
is a perverse one, who hates me like the rest;’ and I was angry. I beat
him--you would have beat him also, Madame Suzanne, if he had screamed
when you touched him. And then--petit drôle!--he screamed more.”
“Very natural,” said Miss Susan. “If you had any heart, you would not
beat a baby like that.”
Giovanna’s eyes flashed. She lifted her hand quickly, as if to give a
blow of recollection now; but, changing her mind, she caught the child
up in her arms, and laid his little flushed cheek to hers. “A présent,
tu m’aimes!” she said. “When I saw how the others did, I knew I could do
it too. Also, Madame Suzanne, I recollected that a mother should have de
l’amitié for her child.”
Miss Susan gave a short contemptuous laugh. “It is a fine thing to have
found that out at last,” she said.
“And I have reflected further,” said Giovanna--“Yes, darling, thou shalt
have these jolies choses;” and with this, she took calmly from the table
one of a very finely-carved set of chessmen, Indian work, which
ornamented it. Miss Susan started, and put out her hand to save the
ivory knight, but the little fellow had already grasped it, and a sudden
scream arose.
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