Inheritance and succession -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“Don’t be so anxious; I daresay it is utter nonsense. Lean down your ear
that I may whisper; I am half-ashamed to say it aloud. Reine, hush!
listen! Somehow I have got a strange feeling, just for a day or two,
that I am not going to die at all, but to live.”
“I am sure of it,” cried the girl, falling on her knees and throwing her
arms round him. “I know it! It was last night. God did not make up His
mind till last night. I felt it in the air. I felt it everywhere. Some
angel put it into my head. For all this time I have been making up my
mind, and giving you up, Bertie, till yesterday; something put it into
my head--the thought was not mine, or I would not have any faith in it.
Something said to me, God is thinking it all over again. Oh, I know! He
would not let them tell you and me both unless it was true.”
“Do you think so, Reine? do you really think so?” said the sick boy--for
he was but a boy--with a sudden dew in his large liquid exhausted eyes.
“I thought you would laugh at me--no, of course, I don’t mean laugh--but
think it a piece of folly. I thought it must be nonsense myself; but do
you really, really think so too?”
The only answer she could make was to kiss him, dashing off her tears
that they might not come upon his face; and the two kept silent for a
moment, two young faces, close together, pale, one with emotion, the
other with weakness, half-angelic in their pathetic youthfulness and the
inspiration of this sudden hope, smiles upon their lips, tears in their
eyes, and the trembling of a confidence too ethereal for common
mortality in the two hearts that beat so close together. There was
something even in the utter unreasonableness of their hope which made it
more touching, more pathetic still. The boy was less moved than the girl
in his weakness, and in the patience which that long apprenticeship to
dying had taught him. It was not so much to him who was going as to her
who must remain.
“If it should be so,” he said after awhile, almost in a whisper, “oh,
how good we ought to be, Reine! If I failed of my duty, if I did not do
what God meant me to do in everything, if I took to thinking of
myself--then it would be better that things had gone on--as they are
going.”
“As they were going, Bertie!”
“You think so, really; you think so? Don’t just say it for my feelings,
for I don’t mind. I was quite willing, you know, Reine.”
Poor boy! already he had put his willingness in the past, unawares.
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