It is but by the accidence of our limited experience that sounds are loud
or soft to that inner ear of us; these words were at one and the same
time a dreadful thunder and a voice interstellarly inaccessible and
withdrawn. They, too, were before, behind, without, and within. And
incorporated (I know not how else to express it) with these words were
other words, in the English I knew, in the Hebrew in which he had quoted
them from the sacred Books of his People, in all languages, in no
language save that essential communication of which languages are but the
inessential husk and medium--words that told me that though I took the
Wings of the Morning and fled into the uttermost parts of the earth, yea,
though I made my bed in Hell, I could not escape him....
He had kept his word. I _did_ know that he knew who and what I was....
I cannot tell whether my lips actually shaped the question that even in
that moment burst from me.
"But Form--and Forms? It _is_ then true that all things are but aspects
of One thing?..."
"Yes--in death," the voice seemed to reply.
My next words, I know, were actually spoken aloud.
"Then tell me--tell me--_do you not wish me to write it?"_
Suddenly I leapt out of my chair with a gulping cry. A voice _had_
spoken....
"Of course we wish you to write it...."
For one instant of time my vision seemed to fold on itself like smoke;
then it was gone. The face into which I was wildly staring was Maschka's,
and behind her stood Schofield. They had been announced, but I had heard
nothing of it.
"Were you thinking of _not_ writing it?" she demanded, while Schofield
scowled at me.
"No--no--," I stammered, as I got up and tardily placed them chairs.
Schofield did not speak, but he did not remove his eyes from me. Somehow
I could not meet them.
"Well," she said, "Jack had already told me that you seemed in two minds
about it. That's what we've called about--to know definitely what it is
you propose to do."
I saw that she had also called, if necessary, to quarrel. I began to
recover a little.
"Did you tell her that?" I demanded of Schofield. "If you did,
you--misinterpreted me."
In my house, he ignored the fact that I was in the room. He replied to
Maschka.
"I understood Mr. Harrison to say definitely, and in those words, that if
I didn't like the way in which he was writing Michael's 'Life,' I might
write and publish one myself," he said.
"I did say that," I admitted; "but I never said that whatever _you_ did I
should not go on with mine."
"Yours!" cried Maschka. "What right have _you_ in my brother's 'Life'?"
I quickly told her.
"I have the right to write my recollections of him, and, subject to
certain provisions of the Law, to base anything on them I think fit," I
replied.
"But," she cried aghast, "there can't be _two_ 'Lives'!..."
"It's news to me that two were contemplated," I returned. "The point is,
that I can get mine published, and you can't."
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