Historical fiction; United States -- History -- Colonial period, ca. 1600-1775 -- Fiction
Someone, somewhere, not long ago, had pronounced his name in that odd
foreign way. It would be pleasant to remember about that, for it had
something to do with sunlight. Meanwhile, his breeches decently
buttoned, he was making excellent progress toward another lamp, Reuben's
books were safe, and he was utterly sober, gruesomely sober, sober as
Mr. Cotton Mather. "Sober as _all_ the mamn Dathers," said Ben, and
stumbled on something soft and screamed a little. Just a dead cat. Now
if he might walk on in this patient way, past the grim windows and
their occasional furtive gleam, he would arrive at another wholly dark
section where a man, offending no one, might run a finger down his
throat, lighten ship, and proceed.
He made it.
His stomach empty, he noted that in spite of perfect sobriety he was
still tremendously drunk, whereat he laughed, but wriggling companion
shadows to left and right of him did not. No: they were heavy-cold,
banishing all warmth of amusement; imaginary but nasty, having the
creeping urgency of sick dreams. He knew them to be imaginary in the
light of that pale flame of reason which stayed alive in him under a
long rising and subsidence of the waves, and here he asked himself
acutely: how may one diminish the force of an imaginary creation, when
naming it imaginary availeth not? Shall we assert, brethren, with
overweening impudicity, that the imagination, by its own act of
creation, hath given unto the shadow a substance akin to that which
occupieth the carnal, corporeal yaphoo?
Cannily they remained behind him, receding, if he dared turn his head,
with contemptuous ease. He knew them, though: open-eyed but dead,
trivial heads with nothing left of the body but a flabby band of hide
such as might be left by the sliding drag of an axe. Double
Indians--why? Why, because the body happens to possess a right side and
a left. "Mother, I have but to remember the look of Union Street and
Dock Square and Cornhill, and shall unquestionably know the Town House
when I arrive at it, being in no sense too foxed for such, but deliver
my mind from that page of Cicero, seeing I hurt him, heedless, heedless
continually...."
The lump in his stomach swallowed that speech, bloating. How can you
cancel a hurt when there's no way to turn back the clock?
You can't.
It happened. It's over.
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