‘That may be. Few people know their own deeper minds. The more potent a
power in us, I suspect it is the more hidden from our scrutiny.’
‘If there be a God, then, Wilfrid, he is very indifferent to what his
creatures think of him.’
‘Perhaps very patient and hopeful, Charley--who knows? Perhaps he will
not force himself upon them, but help them to grow into the true
knowledge of him. Your father may worship the true God, and yet have
only a little of that knowledge.’
A silence followed. At length--‘Thank you for my father,’ said Charley.
‘Thank my uncle,’ I said.
‘For not being like my father?--I do,’ he returned.
It was the loveliest evening that brooded round us as we walked. The
moon had emerged from a rippled sea of grey cloud, over which she cast
her dull opaline halo. Great masses and banks of cloud lay about the
rest of the heavens, and, in the dark rifts between, a star or two were
visible, gazing from the awful distance.
‘I wish I could let it into me, Wilfrid,’ said Charley, after we had
been walking in silence for some time along the grass.
‘Let what into you, Charley?’
‘The night and the blue and the stars.’
‘Why don’t you, then?’
‘I hate being taken in. The more pleasant a self-deception, the less I
choose to submit to it.’
‘That is reasonable. But where lies the deception?’
‘I don’t say it’s a deception. I only don’t know that it isn’t.’
‘Please explain.’
‘I mean what you call the beauty of the night.’
‘Surely there can be little question of that?’
‘Ever so little is enough. Suppose I asked you wherein its beauty
consisted: would you be satisfied if I said--In the arrangement of the
blue and the white, with the sparkles of yellow, and the colours about
the scarce visible moon?’
‘Certainly not. I should reply that it lay in the gracious peace of the
whole--troubled only with the sense of some lovely secret behind, of
which itself was but the half-modelled representation, and therefore
the reluctant outcome.’
‘Suppose I rejected the latter half of what you say, admitting the
former, but judging it only the fortuitous result of the
half-necessary, half-fortuitous concurrences of nature. Suppose I
said:--The air which is necessary to our life, happens to be blue; the
stars can’t help shining through it and making it look deep; and the
clouds are just there because they must be somewhere till they fall
again; all which is more agreeable to us than fog because we feel more
comfortable in weather of the sort, whence, through complacency and
habit, we have got to call it beautiful:--suppose I said this, would
you accept it?’
‘Such a theory would destroy my delight in nature altogether.’
‘Well, isn’t it the truth?’
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