‘Or, like the mole or squint that re-appears in successive generations,
the legacy of some long-forgotten ancestor,’ I said--and several
things unexplained occurred to me as possibly having a common solution.
‘I find, however,’ said Charley, ‘that the name of Cumbermede is not
mentioned in your papers more than about a hundred years back--as far
as I have yet made out.’
‘That is odd,’ I returned, ‘seeing that in the same chest we find that
book with my name, surname and Christian, and the date 1630.’
‘It is strange,’ he acquiesced, ‘and will perhaps require a somewhat
complicated theory to meet it.’
We began to talk of other matters, and, naturally enough, soon came to
Clara.
Charley was never ready to talk of her--indeed, avoided the subject in
a way that continued to perplex me.
‘I confess to you, Charley,’ I said, ‘there is something about her I do
not and cannot understand. It seems to me always as if she were--I will
not say underhand--but as if she had some object in view--some design
upon you--’
‘Upon me!’ exclaimed Charley, looking at me suddenly and with a face
from which all the colour had fled.
‘No, no, Charley, not that,’ I answered, laughing. ‘I used the word
impersonally. I will be more cautious. One would think we had been
talking about a witch--or a demon-lady--you are so frightened at the
notion of her having you in her eye.’
He did not seem altogether relieved, and I caught an uneasy glance
seeking my countenance.
‘But isn’t she charming?’ I went on. ‘It is only to you I could talk
about her so. And after all it may be only a fancy.’
He kept his face downwards and aside, as if he were pondering and
coming to no conclusion. The silence grew and grew until expectation
ceased, and when I spoke again it was of something different.
My reader may be certain from all this that I was not in love with
Clara. Her beauty and liveliness, with a gaiety which not seldom
assumed the form of grace, attracted me much, it is true; but nothing
interferes more with the growth of any passion than a spirit of
questioning, and, that once roused, love begins to cease and pass into
pain. Few, perhaps, could have arrived at the point of admiration I had
reached without falling instantly therefrom into an abyss of absorbing
passion; but with me, inasmuch as I searched every feeling in the hope
of finding in it the everlasting, there was in the present case a
reiterated check, if not indeed recoil; for I was not and could not
make myself sure that Clara was upright;--perhaps the more commonplace
word _straightforward_ would express my meaning better.
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