How came it that the face of the one had lost the half of its radiance,
and the face of the other had gathered all that the former had lost.
Mary’s countenance was as still as ever; there was not in it a single
ray of light beyond its usual expression; but I had become more capable
of reading it, for the coalescence of the face of my dream with her
dreaming face had given me its key; and I was now so far from
indifferent, that I was afraid to look for fear of betraying the
attraction I now found it exercise over me. Seldom surely has a man
been so long familiar with and careless of any countenance to find it
all at once an object of absorbing interest! The very fact of its want
of revelation added immensely to its power over me now--for was I not
in its secret? Did I not know what a lovely soul hid behind that
unexpressive countenance? Did I not know that it was as the veil of the
holy of holies, at times reflecting only the light of the seven golden
lamps in the holy place; at others almost melted away in the rush of
the radiance unspeakable from the hidden and holier side--the region
whence come the revelations. To draw through it, if but once, the
feeblest glimmer of the light I had but once beheld, seemed an ambition
worthy of a life. Knowing her power of reticence, however, and of
withdrawing from the outer courts into the penetralia of her sanctuary,
guessing also at something of the aspect in which she regarded me, I
dared not now make any such attempt. But I resolved to seize what
opportunity might offer of convincing her that I was not so far out of
sympathy with her as to be unworthy of holding closer converse; and I
now began to feel distressed at what had given me little trouble
before, namely, that she should suppose me the misleader of her
brother, while I knew that, however far I might be from an absolute
belief in things which she seemed never to have doubted, I was yet in
some measure the means of keeping him from flinging aside the last
cords which held him to the faith of his fathers. But I would not lead
in any such direction, partly from the fear of hypocrisy, partly from
horror at the idea of making capital of what little faith I had. But
Charley himself afforded me an opportunity which I could not, whatever
my scrupulosity, well avoid.
‘Have you ever looked into that little book, Charley?’ I said, finding
in my hands an early edition of the _Christian Morals_ of Sir Thomas
Browne.--I wanted to say something, that I might not appear distraught.
‘No,’ he answered, with indifference, as he glanced at the title-page.
‘Is it anything particular?’
‘Everything he writes, however whimsical in parts, is well worth more
than mere reading,’ I answered. ‘It is a strangely latinized style, but
has its charm notwithstanding.’
He was turning over the leaves as I spoke. Receiving no response, I
looked up. He seemed to have come upon something which had attracted
him.
‘What have you found?’ I asked.
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