‘Because I do not believe that any one who knew him could possibly
attribute to himself what belonged to Him--could, I mean, talk of an
obligation to himself, when that obligation was to God.’
How far Mary Osborne followed the argument or agreed with it I cannot
tell, but she gave me a look of something like gratitude, and my heart
felt too big for its closed chamber.
At this moment the housemaid who had, along with the carpenter,
assisted me in the library, entered the room. She was rather a forward
girl, and I suppose presumed on our acquaintance to communicate
directly with myself instead of going to the housekeeper. Seeing her
approach as if she wanted to speak to me, I went to meet her. She
handed me a small ring, saying, in a low voice,
‘I found this in your room, sir, and thought it better to bring it to
you.’
‘Thank you,’ I said, putting it at once on my little finger; ‘I am glad
you found it.’
Charley and Clara had begun talking. I believe Clara was trying to make
Charley give her the book he had pocketed, imagining it really of the
character he had, half in sport, professed to believe it. But Mary had
caught sight of the ring, and, with a bewildered expression on her
countenance, was making a step towards me. I put a finger to my lips,
and gave her a look by which I succeeded in arresting her. Utterly
perplexed, I believe, she turned away towards the bookshelves behind
her. I went into the next room, and called Charley.
‘I think we had better not go on with this talk,’ I said. ‘You are very
imprudent indeed, Charley, to be always bringing up subjects that tend
to widen the gulf between you and your sister. When I have a chance, I
do what I can to make her doubt whether you are so far wrong as they
think you, but you must give her time. All your kind of thought is so
new to her that your words cannot possibly convey to her what is in
your mind. If only she were not so afraid of me! But I think she begins
to trust me a little.’
‘It’s no use,’ he returned. Her head is so full of rubbish!’
‘But her heart is so full of goodness!’
‘I wish you could make anything of her! But she looks up to my father
with such a blind adoration that it isn’t of the slightest use
attempting to put an atom of sense into her.’
‘I should indeed despair if I might only set about it after your
fashion. You always seem to shut your eyes to the mental condition of
those that differ from you. Instead of trying to understand them first,
which gives the sole possible chance of your ever making them
understand what you mean, you care only to present your opinions; and
that you do in such a fashion that they must appear to them false. You
even make yourself seem to hold these for very love of their untruth;
and thus make it all but impossible for them to shake off their
fetters: every truth in advance of what they have already learned, will
henceforth come to them associated with your presumed backsliding and
impenitence.’
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