The idea was new to William, and a year or two ago he would have
repelled it because it was new; now he turned his eyes from the horizon,
curiously, to the lean brown face at his elbow.
"No?" he said interrogatively.
"If," said the other, "if I had gone back ... it wouldn’t have been the
same. It couldn’t have been.... If you live that way there’s two
things you can’t do without: a good strong body to stand rain and wind
and work, and a mind you’re not afraid to be alone with. When you’re
miles from any one, in the woods at night, you want to be good company
for yourself. If I’d turned my back on it all, I mightn’t have been
very good company. I’ve done plenty of things to set the parsons praying
over me if I told ’em; I’ve been a fool times out of mind and ashamed of
it afterwards; but——"
He slid into a silence that lasted until William took up the word; not
in answer or argument but irrelevantly, so that he, too, might talk out
his heart.
"Do you know what I think I am sometimes? a rat in a trap—or a squirrel
spinning round in a cage. Very busy doing nothing.... I’ll tell you
one of the things I’ve been doing lately—every word of it truth. I’ve
been typing a long correspondence about a civilian—a worker in one of
the religious organizations who came into the town, ten miles by train,
to get stores he wanted for his hut. The rule is, civilians mustn’t
travel by train without a movement order from the A.P.M.; there isn’t an
A.P.M. in the place he comes from, so he went to the military and got an
_ordre de service_. He came all right, but it’s irregular—an _ordre de
service_ should only be given to a soldier. One of the M.P.’s on duty
at the station reported it—and there’s been strafing and strafing and
strafing. Reams written about it—I’ve written ’em. Not only about the
_ordre de service_ but about who the correspondence is to go through—the
A.P.M.’s office or the Base Commandant or some one else. After three or
four weeks it was referred to G.H.Q. and some one there wrote to the
secretary of the organization asking for an explanation—and naturally he
answered the letter. Well, that was irregular too; he oughtn’t to have
answered because the matter should have been dealt with locally—’gone
through the proper channels.’ So more correspondence and strafing....
Sheets of paper—reams of it—and they say it’s scarce! And in the end,
nothing—just nothing. When the wretched people wrote and asked exactly
what they were to do—how they were to get a movement order from an
A.P.M. when there wasn’t an A.P.M. to give it, we wrote back and said,
’This correspondence must now cease.’ I ticked it out on my
typewriter."
"I believe you," the other nodded, "I’ve seen something of that sort
myself.... And the papers say, ’Your country wants you’!"
"And it goes on," said William, "day after day. I’m always busy—about
nothing. ’Attention is directed to G.R.O. 9999. The Return called for
in the form shown as the third appendix——’"
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