Female friendship -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
He looked away again to the flowers, and Lorraine turned her eyes to
the fire, with a swift wonder in her mind. She felt that something had
transpired since they last parted—something she did not know of, and
that was entirely different to anything that had crossed their path
before. Some new thought had been put into his mind. Something that
made him give her that half-shy, half-wondering look.
She gazed hard at the fire, and her pulses began to beat a little
fitfully. She knew instinctively that something had come suddenly into
being between them, which neither might name, and which was the oldest
thing in the world.
And then across her mind, as once before, swept with swift pitilessness
a vision of what might have been; of what life might have held for her
had she been among the blessed—an aching, tearing longing for a
youthful hour she had irretrievably missed. She drew her hand across
her eyes, ignoring his presence, shutting him out, seeing only the
heavenly joy she had missed.
Supposing such a moment had come to her with such a man, when she, like
him, was in the first flush of youth and beauty; of dreams and hopes,
and rich believing. What a knight for a lovely maid! What a lover to
dream of bashfully and fearfully; and with all her soul one thought of
him.
From her vantage ground of much doing and much knowing, she looked back
yearningly to the bloom and springtide of life, when all splendid
things are possible, and any day may bring the splendid knight.
And instead had come... ah, what?
Well! For her it had been the wolf in sheep’s clothing, who, beside all
he had robbed her of, had taken all her chance of the one great
awakening to blinding joy. Now she could only look upon the joy from
afar, seeing a barrier of fateful years, and, like a drawn sword at the
gate of her dream, the stern, unyielding decree that has echoed
unchanged down the long centuries: “Thou shalt not—”
Alymer was silent too, standing with the thoughtful expression on his
face that was so attractive, probing a little nervously into that wish
he had expressed, and wondering a little uncertainly just what it
meant.
Then Lorraine got up.
“You are grave, _mon ami_; and it is the springtime. Grave thoughts are
for the autumn of life—recklessness better becomes the joyful spring.”
“Are you ever reckless nowadays?” he asked, watching her graceful
movements as she bent down and buried her face in a cushion of violets.
“I am when I smell violets. They may be modest and retiring little
flowers, but they hold spring rapture and spring lavishness and spring
desiring in their scent all the same.”
“Then you are reckless now?”
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