Female friendship -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
It seemed something apart altogether from her generous friendship and
helpful influence. It made him pleased with himself, and filled his
mind with a yet greater tenderness to her. He knew so much now of her
early difficulties and following troubles—of the frivolous,
unprincipled mother, and the long, uphill fight. She had honoured him
with her confidence in spite of his youth, and now—
He quickened his steps, and his pulses leapt yet more fitfully. Spring
was in the air and in his blood, and one of the recognised beauties of
London had been gracious to him beyond all dreaming.
It was enough for the present hour. Why ask any inconvenient questions
and spoil it all? Let the future look after itself.
Only one thought for a moment cast a little shadow upon his ardour. It
crossed his mind, for no accountable reason, to wonder what Hal would
think. He was a little afraid she would strongly disapprove.
But, after all, if she did, what matter? He owed nothing to Hal, and
there was no reason why her views should disturb him in the least. Of
course it did not… and yet… Hal’s good opinion was a thing worth
having; and, in short, he hoped she would not know.
It was not that she was straight-laced. She was too near the heart of
humanity through her daily toil to be other than a generous judge; but
she was also a creature of ideals for herself and for those who would
be among her best friends; and she would have known unerringly that no
great, consuming love had drowned his reason and filled his senses.
It was for that she would have judged him; and for that he would have
stood before her direct gaze ashamed. One might be gay and
irresponsible and merry, but there were just one or two things which
must not be allowed in that category. Instinctively, he knew that in
Hal’s view he would have transgressed—not because he felt too much, but
because he felt too little to be justified.
But why need she know? Why need any one know? He did not think his
mother would follow up any further the story she had been told, and he
would see his aunt about it personally. It was better to have it out
with her, lest she took upon herself to interview Lorraine, and make
more trouble still.
He ran up the stairs to the flat, two steps at a time; and scrambled to
get changed for the dinner to which he was going, still feeling a
pulsing thrill that, among all men, he was Lorraine Vivian’s chosen
friend.
In another flat—a bachelor one in Ryder Street—an elderly beau,
likewise dressed for a dinner-party, though with the utmost care and
precision, instead of a scramble. And to himself he said, as he took a
long, last look at the image he loved:
“I must go tomorrow morning and settle this little matter about Alymer.
No doubt Lorraine will be amazed to see how well-preserved I am. She
cannot have any real feeling for such a boy, and, after all, a
good-looking man of the world—”
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