Female friendship -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
“I think I must. This sultry heat is too much for me, and I’m very
tired of London and everything belonging to it. I should like to have
gone to my old haven on the Italian Riviera, but it would be too hot.”
“Why so far?”
Lorraine glanced at Hal with a strange expression in her eyes, as she
said:
“It is a greater rest to get right away. I shall try some little place
in Brittany. Switzerland is so overrun with tourists in the summer.”
When she was alone, some of the quiet went out of Lorraine’s face and a
restless look of pain crept in. She shaded her eyes and gazed long at
the river.
That old spirit of recklessness, which had caused her to hurl scorn and
defiance at Mrs. Hermon’s emissary, and afterwards allow Alymer to
visit her at the little fishing-village, against his wiser judgment,
had passed away now, and given place to one of poignant questioning—a
spirit of questioning concerning that mad action of hers, and its
results. She could not find it in her heart to regret it, not for one
moment; but nevertheless her mind was sore troubled concerning the
future for Alymer and herself.
And at the back of all the questioning there sounded ever an insistent
call to renounce—something above and beyond all desire and all seeming,
which told her she must not remain in his life, that, as far as she was
concerned, he must be free for the great work of his future.
And yet how hard it was to go! Ever and anon her longing whispered,
“Why seek a crisis yet? Why not go on the same a little longer?”
But since, before long, she would be compelled to go, and since the
nausea of London was gaining upon her, she began to feel it would
certainly be wiser to start at once, and find some homely, quiet spot
where she could remain in privacy, with her identity unknown for some
months.
And always that quiet voice in the background insisted that she must
cut herself off from Alymer Hermon.
Soon after Hal had left her he came in, and, standing as usual upon the
hearth, regarded her with grave eyes. He was nearly always grave now,
as with some recollection that weighed heavily on his mind.
Lorraine tried to rally him, but without much success; and a pitiless
thought that had sometimes assailed her of late—that he regretted their
friendship and everything connected with it, struck icily on her heart.
He was too loyal to show it, and yet, that strong instinct of
womanhood, which reads closed books as if they were spread open to the
light, sounded its warning note. He would never blame her openly, but
in his heart he was already beginning to find it a little difficult not
to do so secretly.
“You can’t go away alone, Lorry,” he said unhappily, “and I can’t
possibly come with you.”
“Of course you can’t,” cheerfully. “It isn’t to be thought of for a
moment. I don’t know whether you can even come and see me. You
certainly mustn’t run any risks just now. Flip tells me Hall is
interested, and you may get your big chance shortly through him.”
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