Female friendship -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
And even so, was it in any case likely to go undimmed much longer? The
shadows were certain enough to come, if not through her, perhaps
through some one with less soul, and less fineness of aim, who would do
him far greater harm. Her love for him was not, at least, entirely
selfish.
She knew that she cared very much for his future. She cared very much
that life should give him a chance to fulfill the best of his promise.
And if the chance came by shadows, well, across the river of a man’s
life they flitted lightly enough as a rule, chasing each other away,
and leaving the waters still flowing joyfully. It was only for a woman,
apparently, the shadows left a stain that even the sunlight could not
chase away.
It would seem woman was made a helpmeet for man in many ways beside
that of keeping his home and bearing his children. How often did he owe
his best development and best achievements to her, absorbing light from
her in some mysterious ordering, and soaring away afterwards while she
was left among the shadows.
Yet, by some equally mysterious compensation, a woman was often so
fashioned that if she could feel the upward flight was won through her,
she might rest statisfied even though him she loved had soared away. It
was the mother-love blending strangely with the wife-love; the
protecting, inspiring, unselfish, mothering instinct, lying in the soul
of every true-hearted woman.
Standing gazing at the flashing river, Lorraine, in the midst of her
probing, knew that it was his ultimate success and good she wanted, as
well as his freshness to sweeten her own life.
And yet?—
What if she brought a shadow where there would otherwise have been no
shadow, dimmed a brightness that, without her, had gone undimmed? She
knew he was not weak naturally. He did not need any strengthening; only
impetus, ambition, aim, and some safeguarding by the way.
She smiled a little drearily at the recollection that it was from her,
herself, that probably his own people would think he needed
safeguarding. She could foresee that they would likely enough hurl
themselves between him and her, oblivious that by doing so they might
very possibly be the cause of driving him to far worse. But that, of
course, no one could help; as how should they know the fine shades
between the women who lived outside the conventions?
But then again, they need not know that the great friendship
existed—why should they? After all, few would credit the celebrated,
beautiful actress with anything beyond a passing fancy for the
youthful, briefless barrister.
And yet?—
Across every fresh pathway she turned her thoughts along, was still
that arresting, intangible, “and yet”.
The pity of it! At least he was strong, and true, and unspoilt now. Why
not give life a chance to leave him so?
Why not give Fate a chance to endow him quickly with the rich, blessed
love that kept a man walking straight and strong along his steadfast
way?
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