Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Sam grinned. “You are like your father, driving the mowing machine up
and down under the church windows on Sunday mornings,” he declared; “you
think you could remake the world by shaking your fist at it. I should
like to go and see you fined in a court room for starving sheep.”
Janet, closing her eyes and lying back in her chair, laughed with
delight and declared that they would have a splendid quarrelsome
evening.
After Edith had gone out, Sam sat through the evening with Janet,
listening to her exposition of life and what she thought it should mean
to a strong capable fellow like himself, as he had been listening ever
since their acquaintanceship began. In the talk, and in the many talks
they had had together, talks that rang in his ears for years, the little
black-eyed woman gave him a glimpse into a whole purposeful universe of
thought and action of which he had never dreamed, introducing him to a
new world of men: methodical, hard-thinking Germans, emotional, dreaming
Russians, analytical, courageous Norwegians, Spaniards and Italians with
their sense of beauty, and blundering, hopeful Englishmen wanting so
much and getting so little; so that at the end of the evening he went
out of her presence feeling strangely small and insignificant against
the great world background she had drawn for him.
Sam did not understand Janet’s point of view. It was all too new and
foreign to everything life had taught him, and in his mind he fought
her ideas doggedly, clinging to his own concrete, practical thoughts and
hopes, but on the train homeward bound, and in his own room later, he
turned over and over in his mind the things she had said and tried in a
dim way to grasp the bigness of the conception of human life she had got
sitting in a wheel chair and looking down into Wabash Avenue.
Sam loved Janet Eberly. No word of that had ever passed between them
and he had seen her hand flash out and grasp the shoulder of Jack Prince
when she was laying down to him some law of life as she saw it, as it
had so often shot out and grasped his own, but had she been able to
spring out of the wheel chair he should have taken her hand and gone
with her to the clergyman within the hour and in his heart he knew that
she would have gone with him gladly.
Janet died suddenly during the second year of Sam’s work for the gun
company without a direct declaration of affection from him, but during
the years when they were much together he thought of her as in a sense
his wife and when she died he was desolate, overdrinking night after
night and wandering aimlessly through the deserted streets during hours
when he should have been asleep. She was the first woman who ever got
hold of and stirred his manhood, and she awoke something in him that
made it possible for him later to see life with a broadness and scope of
vision that was no part of the pushing, energetic young man of dollars
and of industry who sat beside her wheeled chair during the evenings on
Wabash Avenue.
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