Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
The incident with Ed and the red-haired man had been his first serious
effort at anything like social service achieved through controlling or
attempting to influence the public mind, for his was the type of mind
that runs to the concrete, the actual. As he sat in the ravine talking
to Jake, and, later, coming home in the boat under the multitude of
stars, he had looked up from among the drunken workmen and his mind had
seen a city built for a people, a city independent, beautiful, strong,
and free, but a glimpse of a red head through a barroom door and a
socialist trembling before a name had dispelled the vision. After his
return from hearing the socialist, who in his turn was hedged about by
complicated influences, and in those November days when he walked south
through Illinois, seeing the late glory of the trees and breathing the
fine air, he laughed at himself for having had the vision. It was not
that the red-haired man had sold him out, it was not the beating given
him by Ed’s sullen-faced son or the blows across the face at the hands
of his vigorous wife--it was just that at bottom he did not believe the
people wanted reform; they wanted a ten per cent raise in wages. The
public mind was a thing too big, too complicated and inert for a vision
or an ideal to get at and move deeply.
And then, walking on the road and struggling to find truth even within
himself, Sam had to come to something else. At bottom he was no leader,
no reformer. He had not wanted the free city for a free people, but as a
work to be done by his own hand. He was McPherson, the money maker, the
man who loved himself. The fact, not the sight of Jake hobnobbing with
Bill or the timidity of the socialist, had blocked his way to work as a
political reformer and builder.
Tramping south between the rows of shocked corn he laughed at himself.
“The experience with Ed and Jake has done something for me,” he thought.
“They bullied me. I have been a kind of bully myself and what has
happened has been good medicine for me.”
Sam walked the roads of Illinois, Ohio, New York, and other states,
through hill country and flat country, in the snow drifts of winter and
through the storms of spring, talking to people, asking their way of
life and the end toward which they worked. At night he dreamed of Sue,
of his boyhood struggles in Caxton, of Janet Eberly sitting in her chair
and talking of writers of books, or, visualising the stock exchange or
some garish drinking place, he saw again the faces of Crofts, Webster,
Morrison, and Prince intent and eager as he laid before them some scheme
of money making. Sometimes at night he awoke, seized with horror, seeing
Colonel Tom with the revolver pressed against his head; and sitting in
his bed, and all through the next day he talked aloud to himself.
“The damned old coward,” he shouted into the darkness of his room or
into the wide peaceful prospect of the countryside.
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