Winona : $b A tale of Negro life in the South and SouthwestHopkins, Pauline E. (Pauline Elizabeth)
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Winona : $b A tale of Negro life in the South and Southwest
Hopkins, Pauline E. (Pauline Elizabeth)
African Americans -- Southern States -- Fiction; African Americans -- Southwestern States -- Fiction
During her weeks of unselfish devotion when she had played the role
of the boy nurse so successfully, she had been purely and proudly
glad. Now, little by little, a gulf had opened between them which to
her unsophisticated mind could not be bridged. There lay the misery
of the present time--she was nothing to him. Does any love resign its
self-imposed tasks of delightful cares and happy anxieties without
a pang? Like any other young untrained creature, she tormented
herself with fears that were but shadows and railed at barriers which
she herself had raised, even while she argued that Fate had fixed
impassable chasms of race and caste between them.
“How a man glories in war,” she said, after a silence, from her seat on
a jagged rock overhanging the cliff.
“You, with your Indian training, ought to feel with us and not think of
fear,” said Warren.
“But then, I am not of the blood.”
“True.”
His reply fell upon her ear like a reproach--a reflection upon her
Negro origin. Her suspicion sounded in her voice as she replied:
“Better an Indian than a Negro? I do not blame you for your preference.”
“Why speak with that tone--so scornfully? Is it possible that you can
think so meanly of me?”
She could not meet his eye, but her answer was humbly given--her answer
couched in the language of the tribes.
“Are you not a white brave? Do not all of them hate the black blood?”
“No; not all white men, thank God. In my country we think not of the
color of the skin but of the man--the woman--the heart.”
“Oh, your country! Do you know, I believe my dear papa was of the same?”
Her head rested against the tree back of her; the lace-work of the pine
ashes formed upon her knees and enveloped her as a cloud.
He nodded in reply, and continued, musingly, as his eyes wandered off
over the plain at his feet:
“England is a country to die for--rich, grand, humane! You shall see it
for yourself.”
“Which is my country, I wonder? Judah says that he will not fight for
the Stars and Stripes if war comes--the flag that makes the Negro
a slave. This country mine? No, no! The fearful things that I have
seen----” she broke off abruptly. “My father’s country shall be mine.”
“Better reserve your decision until you marry.”
“I shall never marry.”
“But why?” asked Warren, opening his eyes in surprise. “Nonsense; all
girls expect to marry, and do--most of them.”
“I cannot marry out of the class of my father,” she replied, with head
proudly erect. “It follows, then, that I shall never marry.”
“Nonsense,” again returned Warren. “You will not live and grow old
alone. Mere birth does not count for more than one’s whole training
afterward, and you have been bred among another race altogether.”
“But the degradation of the two years just passed can never leave me;
life will never seem quite the same,” she said in a stifled voice full
of pain. “I shall be a nun.” She ended with a little laugh, but the
voice quivered beneath it.
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