Bildungsromans; France -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Villages -- France -- Fiction
No doubt by this behaviour they meant only to shew that, if there were
things in the world which they themselves lacked--in this instance,
certain prerogatives which the old lady enjoyed, and the privilege of
her acquaintance--it was not because they could not, but because they
did not choose to acquire them. But they had succeeded in convincing
themselves that this really was what they felt; and it was the
suppression of all desire for, of all curiosity as to forms of life
which were unfamiliar, of all hope of pleasing new people (for which, in
the women, had been substituted a feigned contempt, an artificial
brightness) that had the awkward result of obliging them to label their
discontent satisfaction, and lie everlastingly to themselves, for which
they were greatly to be pitied. But everyone else in the hotel was no
doubt behaving in a similar fashion, though his behaviour might take a
different form, and sacrificing, if not to self-importance, at any rate
to certain inculcated principles and mental habits the thrilling delight
of mixing in a strange kind of life. Of course, the atmosphere of the
microcosm in which the old lady isolated herself was not poisoned with
virulent bitterness, as was that of the group in which the wives of the
solicitor and magistrate sat chattering with impotent rage. It was
indeed embalmed with a delicate and old world fragrance which, however,
was none the less artificial. For at heart the old lady would probably
have found in attracting, in attaching to herself (and, with that
object, recreating herself) the mysterious sympathy of new friends a
charm which is altogether lacking from the pleasure that is to be
derived from mixing only with the people of one's own world, and
reminding oneself that, one's own being the best of all possible worlds,
the ill-informed contempt of "outsiders" may be disregarded. Perhaps she
felt that--were she to arrive _incognito_ at the Grand Hotel, Balbec,
she would, in her black stuff gown and old-fashioned bonnet, bring a
smile to the lips of some old reprobate, who from the depths of his
rocking chair would glance up and murmur, "What a scarecrow!" or, still
worse, to those of some man of repute who had, like the magistrate, kept
between his pepper-and-salt whiskers a rosy complexion and a pair of
sparkling eyes such as she liked to see, and would at once bring the
magnifying lens of the conjugal glasses to bear upon so quaint a
phenomenon; and perhaps it was in unconfessed dread of those first few
minutes, which, though one knows that they will be but a few minutes,
are none the less terrifying, like the first plunge of one's head under
water, that this old lady sent down in advance a servant, who would
inform the hotel of the personality and habits of his mistress, and,
cutting short the manager's greetings, made, with an abruptness in which
there was more timidity than pride, for her room, where her own
curtains, substituted for those that draped the hotel windows, her own
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