England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
“It could not be done, Miss Lottie. I know it could not be done. You
are a lady, and far above me. I know I am not your equal--in some
things.”
Lottie began to be too angry to laugh, but yet she was provoked to
ridicule, which is the keenest of weapons. She made him a little mocking
curtsey. “It is very kind of you to say so, I am sure, for we are quite
poor people, Mr. Purcell; not fortunate, and getting on in the world
like you.”
“No, Miss Despard,” he said, simply, “that was just what I wanted to
say. If you had been as well off as I could wish, I should not have
ventured to say anything. I have always loved you, and thought of you
above all the world. Since you first came to St. Michael’s, I have never
thought of any one but you. It has been my hope that some time or other
I might be able to--but it was only just yesterday that I heard
something that made me settle--two things----”
She did not speak, being, indeed, too angry and annoyed for speech; but
she felt a kind of contemptuous, wrathful interest in what he was
saying, and curiosity to know what it was that had induced him to make
this venture; and, accordingly, gave him a glance, in which there was an
impatient question. Purcell was not too discriminating. He felt
encouraged by being listened to, from whatsoever motive.
“Two things,” he said, with stolid steadiness. “One, to take
Sturminster. I had settled before I would not take it, but St.
Ermengilde’s. But when I heard _that_, I changed my mind, though it did
not please the Signor. Sturminster will make me independent; it will
give me a home. And then I settled to tell you, Miss Lottie: if you are
uncomfortable at home, if you don’t like things that may be going to
happen: to tell you that there’s another home ready for you, if you will
have it; a home that may be made very comfortable; a place of your own,
to do what you like with, that will be waiting for you, whenever you
please, at a moment’s notice, the sooner the better. If you would say
yes, I would go directly, I would go to-morrow, and prepare; and nobody
would be able to give you trouble or make you uncomfortable any longer.
Only say the word, and there is nothing, nothing I would not do----”
Lottie stood and gazed at him, wondering, bitterly ashamed and
humiliated, and yet not without a sense that so much simple devotion was
worth more than to be crushed, or scorned, or flung from her, as she
wished to fling it. She restrained herself with an effort. “What do you
mean?” she said. “Is it possible that you are asking me to _marry_ you,
Mr. Purcell? That cannot be what you mean.”
“What else could it be?” he said, turning on her a look of genuine
surprise. “You don’t suppose, Miss Despard, that I could be thinking of
anything else?”
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