England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
This melted the little momentary vexation away, and she promised. And
thus they parted perforce--opposite Captain Despard’s door. How glad
Lottie was that the door was open! It stood open all through the summer,
and the habits of the summer were scarcely over. By the light in the
dining-room downstairs and the sound of the voices she divined that tea
was not yet over. But she was not able to encounter Mrs. Despard
to-night. She did not want to see anyone. Her heart was still so full of
delicious tumult, her eyes of sweet tears. She had gone out so
sorrowful, so indignant, not knowing what was to become of her. And now
she knew what was to become of her--the most beautiful, happy fate. He
had said he was poor. What did it matter if he was poor? Was she not
used to that? Lottie knew, and said to herself with secret joy, that she
was the right wife for a poor man. He might have got the noblest of
brides, and she would not have been so fit for him; but _she_ was fit
for that post if ever a young woman was. She would take care of the
little he had, which one might be sure he would never do himself--he was
too generous, too kind for that; Lottie loved him for his prodigality,
even while she determined to control it. She would take care of him and
do everything for him, as no woman used to wealth could do. And she
would spur him on so that he should do great things--things which he had
not done heretofore, only because he had not stimulus enough. He should
have stimulus enough now, with a wife who would exult in all he did, and
support him with sympathy and help. It was not any passive position that
she mapped out for herself. She knew what it meant to be poor, far
better than Rollo did. And she did not mind it. Why should she mind it?
She had been used to it all her life. She would not care what she did.
But he should never have to blush for his wife as a drudge. She would
never forget her position, and his position, which was so much greater
than hers. This was the first time that Lottie thought of his position.
She did so now with a heightening of colour, and louder throb of her
heart. By this time she was sitting in her own room without even a
candle, glad of the seclusion and of the darkness in which she could
think, unbetrayed even to herself. Her heart gave a bound, and a flush
came to her cheek. There could be no doubt now about her position. No
one could dream, no one could think that Rollo’s wife was ever to be
looked down upon. This gave her a distinct thrill of pleasure; and then
she passed it by, to return to a dearer subject--Himself! how anxious he
had been! as if it were possible she could have resisted his love. He
had wooed her, she thought, as if she had been a princess--doubling
Lottie’s happiness by doing in this respect the thing she felt to be
most right and fit, though, oh! so unnecessary in respect to herself!
Could he really have any doubt how it would turn out? The thought of
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