England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
which he could not afford to lose, and was annoyed on this account; and
he was excited, but more sleepy, on account of the potations which had
accompanied his play. “By----, I’ll have it back to-morrow night--luck
can’t be so against me one night after another.” This was the only
burden of his simple and uncomplicated reflections. He thought nothing
of his children one way or another. Both his children, however, though
in different ways, were thinking of him. Lottie, though she dared not
openly sit up for her father, remained up in her own room until he came
in, and she had made sure that he did not want anything, and was not
likely to set the house on fire. But Law’s reflections were more serious
than those of the other two. It seemed to the idle lad as if suddenly a
real burden had got on to his shoulders. He was thoroughly frightened
out of the pleasant calm of nature--the sense that everything must go on
as everything had gone since he could remember. In later days, indeed,
things had gone better for Law--Lottie had managed now and then to
scrape a shilling or two off the housekeeping to give him, and of late
she had not bullied him quite so much as usual. The current had been
flowing more evenly--everything had conspired to make the happy-go-lucky
of his life more smooth than before. He woke up with all the more fright
and surprise to the sudden danger now.
CHAPTER VIII.
TRIUMPH AND TERROR.
Lottie had gone home that night, it need not be said, with her head full
of excitement. Had she not good reason to look upon this evening as of
importance in her life? She had met the man who, before he had ever
spoken to her, had, according to all appearances, placed her on the
highest pinnacle on which a girl can be placed--the throne of a romantic
love. Though it had been a temporary downfall to her to be placed in the
charge of Mr. Ashford and the Signor, instead of crossing the Dean’s
Walk in the company of this secret and poetical lover, yet she was
almost glad to be thus let drop into quietness, to avert any word or
look too much, which might have spoiled the visionary elevation on which
she felt herself. Yes, she was glad that they had never been alone. Had
he whispered an avowal of any kind into her ear, she was not, she knew,
prepared for it; Lottie was honest even in her self-delusion, and she
knew that, however profoundly to her advantage it might be, she could
not make any response to a man whom she did not know, whom she was
speaking to for the first time, notwithstanding her consciousness that
he must have been thinking of her for a long time. She could not have
made any fit reply. She must have said something which probably would
have hurt him in the fervour of his romantic passion; for, though
grateful to him and romantically touched by his evident devotion, Lottie
could not have persuaded herself that he was anything to her except a
delightful wonder and most flattering novelty. No, it was better, much
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