England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
better, that he did not come; she must have hurt his feelings,
discouraged him, probably driven him away from her; and she was very far
from wishing to drive him away. Lottie thought, with an innocent
calculation, if she saw a little more of him, had a little time given
her to make his acquaintance, that probably she would come to love him
quite naturally and spontaneously; but at present it was not possible
that she could do so, and she felt a natural shrinking from any
premature disclosure of his feelings. Thus it was evidently most
fortunate that the Dean had interposed, that Rollo had not been allowed
to come home with her--fortunate, and yet a little disappointing too.
There had been a very few words exchanged with her companions as they
crossed the Dean’s Walk. Mr. Ashford had most kindly and courteously
reminded her that she had expressed a wish to speak to him about
something. “It is too late now to ask what it was,” he said; “I must not
keep you out of doors at this hour; but if you will permit me, I will
call and inquire in what way I can be of use to you?” “You know in what
way _I_ would like to be of use to you, Miss Despard,” the Signor said
on the other side. All this was very flattering, even though she might
be displeased by the Signor’s reiteration of his disagreeable offer. She
made him a curtsey like Lady Caroline, while to the minor canon she gave
her hand, which perhaps was quite sufficient to mark her different
estimation of them. And indeed the Signor had been very kind about the
accompaniments, which he had certainly played to perfection. This
recollection came to her mind as he thanked her for her singing,
undaunted by the stiffness of her leave-taking. “Indeed, I owe you more,
a great deal more, than you can possibly owe me,” Lottie said, with a
burst of compunction; “I never sang so well before, because I never had
such an accompaniment.” “Then I hope I may accompany you very often
again,” he said, with a smile, as he went away. Thus even with the
Signor, Lottie felt herself in perfect good-humour and charity. A man
who paid such compliments to her voice, how could she be hard upon him,
even if he made a little mistake in respect to her position? And she
went in out of the summer night in a state of celestial satisfaction
with all the people surrounding her--and herself. Even Lady Caroline had
melted into something which was warmth for her. She had said, “I have
enjoyed your singing very much, Miss Despard,” and had touched Lottie’s
hand with two limp fingers--that was something, indeed it was much for
Lady Caroline. And all the other great ladies had spoken, or at least
had smiled upon Lottie, thanking her. What could she have wished for
more? She went up into her little tiny room, which was not much bigger
than Lady Caroline’s grand piano, and throwing off the Indian shawl (if
Mrs. O’Shaughnessy could but have seen it!) on the floor, sat down upon
her little white bed and began to think. To think! nothing of the
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