England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
And what a problem it was with which Lottie Despard was thus left alone!
The house was still, no one moving in it--nothing to distract her
thoughts. Now and then a swell of music from the Abbey, where service
was going on, swept in, filling the silence for a moment; but most of
the inhabitants of the Lodges were at matins, and all was very still in
the sunshine, the Dean’s Walk lying broad and quiet, with scarcely a
shadow to break the light. Downstairs the little maid-of-all-work had
closed the door of the kitchen, so that her proceedings were inaudible.
And the Captain, as in duty bound, was in the Abbey, trolling forth the
responses in a fine baritone, as he might have done had they been the
chorus of a song. Lottie sat like a statue in the midst of this
stillness, her eyes abstracted, her mind absorbed. What a problem to
occupy her! Law, rustling over his books in his own room, grew
frightened as he thought of her. She would break her heart; it would
make her ill; it might almost kill her, he thought. She sat with her
work dropped on her knee, her eyes fixed but not seeing anything; her
mind--what could occupy it but one reflection? the sudden possibility
of a breaking up of all her traditions, an end of her young life--a
dismal sudden survey of the means of maintaining herself, and where she
could go to in case this unthought-of catastrophe should occur at once.
Poor desolate Lottie, motherless, friendless, with no one to consult in
such an emergency, no one to fly to! What could be more terrible than to
be brought face to face with such an appalling change, unwarned,
unprepared? What was she to do? where was she to go? Worse than an
orphan, penniless, homeless, what would become of her? No wonder if
despair was paramount in the poor girl’s thoughts.
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