Bohemianism -- Fiction; London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Married people -- England -- Fiction
For the first time he saw the enormity of his conduct. He called himself
coward and criminal. In that dreadful hour he awoke from his dream and
became himself again. The veil fell from his eyes, the transformation
was complete. To do him justice there was no more inventor, no more
blindly ambitious seeker after wealth, but the Philip of former days
with no thought but for Dora. He would have given, that night, his last
farthing for a smile from her!
Philip rose suddenly from his seat. He must take a resolution on the
spot. He was face to face with a vital crisis on which all his future
life depended. His first impulse was to go to Dora and throw himself at
her feet to implore her pardon. "No," he said to himself, "as long as
that contract exists, there is nothing to be done." He held it in his
hands, that paper which had cost Dora so much. It burned to the touch.
He looked at it twice, and he read it through. His mind was at once made
up--tear up the thing, and fling it in the face of Sabaroff!
During this time there was much movement, much sound of coming and going
on the staircase and in the hall. Suddenly Philip recognised the voice
of Dr. Templeton saying, "It is the only way to save her, at least the
only hope." Upon this a servant came rapidly downstairs, and Philip
stopped him in the hall to ask--
"Where are you going?"
"To St. George's Hospital," was the reply.
"For Miss Eva? Is she worse?"
"Yes, sir; it appears that they are going to perform tracheotomy," said
the man, who had heard the word and repeated it correctly.
Philip flew upstairs. When he reached the door of Eva's room, saw the
child half choking and unconscious, and saw Dora kneeling by the
bedside, he dared not enter, but stood in the doorway--heart-broken,
pale, and immobile as death. That which crowned his misery and despair
was the fact that Dora had not thought of sending down for him in such a
moment as this. With difficulty he repressed the sob that rose from his
heart. He realised then all the depth of the abyss that separated him
now from his wife and child, an abyss of his own digging. No, he,
adoring Eva as he did, dared not penetrate into the room where she lay.
Almost immediately a surgeon and two students arrived from the hospital.
Philip let them pass, and then took up his post of observation again;
but when he saw them open the case that contained the shining steel
instruments and little sponges, the needles and all the apparatus for
their operation; when he saw the surgeon sign to Dora to rise and, by a
touch firm and gentle, direct her to leave the bedroom, Philip could
bear up no longer, all his courage forsook him. He fled to the library,
and there let his choking tears have way. Wretched and forsaken, he
broke down utterly.
"O God!" he cried, "it is too much; I have not deserved such
punishment."
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