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“Is it?” Mildred asked, unhappily. “If John were any other kind of man,
it might be ridiculous.” Tears came into her eyes that had been dry
until now; but she struggled with herself and kept more from coming.
“Isn’t it ironical?” she said. “The very goodness of such a man as John,
his simple kindness, his idealizing—the very things I’ve cared for most
in him—that they should be his weakness and just what leaves him open
to the easy cajoling of a crude trespasser like Julietta Voss! Don’t you
understand, Hobart? I know you didn’t understand this afternoon, but
don’t you now? You thought I was jealous of him, I know. Perhaps I am;
perhaps I do want to keep him for myself; but I’m his wife; why
shouldn’t I? And I know I’m better for him than she’d be. Oh, don’t you
understand? I want to _protect_ him!”
Hobart came to her and took her hand. “Mildred, old John hasn’t the
remotest idea you’re suffering like this. You’ve got to tell him about
it.”
“But I _can’t_,” she cried. “I can’t let him think I’m just a jealous
woman, and what else would he think of me if I told him the truth about
her? That’s why I don’t want you to go out there with them to-morrow,
Hobart.”
“Of course I won’t, since you ask it,” he said, mystified. “Yet I don’t
see——”
“You don’t?” his wife asked, sharply; and, in obvious pity for a poor
understanding, characteristically manlike, she explained what she had
instantly divined—her unhappy sister’s reason for coming to ask him to
help her. “Julietta counts on your being with them as the answer to the
talk about them. She intends to have a defence against the talk—an
answer that will help to keep people on her side—and if you break your
engagement without any explanation she’ll wonder what it means, and if
we haven’t _asked_ you to do it; and she’ll get John to find out. He’ll
ask you why you didn’t come. Then you can tell him you stayed away
because you’re troubled about what Mildred may think. It’s all you need
say, and he’ll speak to Mildred about it. That will give her a _chance_
to talk to him.”
“Is it what you want, Mildred?” he asked.
“Yes,” she said. “It’s the only thing I can think of. It gives me a
chance to talk to him, that’s all. It may make him despise me, anyhow. I
don’t know what he’ll say, but I’ve got to do it;—I can’t go on any
longer not saying _anything_! Perhaps”—her breath caught in her throat,
and for a moment she could not speak—“perhaps he’ll ask me for a
divorce. Well, if he does, I’ll give it to him!”
“No, no!” her sister cried. “You said you wanted to protect him!”
“If he doesn’t love me any more, I _couldn’t_,” Mildred sobbed, for her
struggle to control herself was lost now, and her weeping became
convulsive. “Don’t you see I couldn’t? You can’t protect anybody that’s
tired of you. If he’s tired of you, how can you protect him against
someone he’s in love with?”
“My dear sister!” Hobart begged her, deeply moved. “Don’t think it. Old
John isn’t in love with Julietta Voss any more than I am!”
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