Several women were sitting up in bed, with starched night-caps nodding
at different angles. Over the fireplace was a lithograph of Queen
Victoria giving the Bible as the source of England's greatness to an
Indian potentate, and beneath it, sitting very still in a large
armchair, was Jane Evans staring into the fire. She was very quiet,
broken, and helplessly docile. Her stillness was alarming. She seemed to
be already dead in spirit. Even the child soon to be separated from her
scarcely concerned her. She was quite neat. Thin and fatigued as her
face was, she did not appear to have suffered greatly in health.
"Jane, my dear, I've not come to blame you," began Anne, "I've come to
see if there's anything I can do to make it easier for you to face the
future and what's coming. I only heard of you coming here by accident or
you shouldn't have been left alone. You mustn't think everybody's
forsaken you and you've no friend left to you. It's often the case that
you know your true friends in trouble," she continued sententiously.
"And if only you could find the best Friend of all now when you need Him
most." Her prim phrasing changed to earnestness. "There was a woman once
that they dragged out in front of everybody for evil-doing. But He
wouldn't have it. He put them to silence, and then when she was all
alone with Him He showed her how tender He was to them that do wrong. If
you only knew Him and His kindness, and how He can understand any kind
of trouble. There's a good deal you think none of us can understand, but
_He_ can if you tell Him." She wiped her eyes. Jane did not seem to have
heard.
"I don't want to worry you," continued Anne; "you've got a good deal to
bear and to think of, and you've got to keep up for the sake of the
child. He'll need you to be father and mother both. Matron thinks you'll
be better here for the present, but you mustn't give up and think you're
to stay in the Union all your life. But try to think of the child, and
how God'll help you if you try to do the right."
It was like speaking to a person a very long way off, and Anne desisted.
"She's very quiet, isn't she?" said the Matron. "That'll have to break
down soon. The doctor thinks she'll be all right when the child comes.
The labour'll give her a shock and rouse her. She comes of a better
class than the usual ones. It's the disgrace she can't get over. She'll
do anything she's told to do. I sometimes get tired of making the other
women do as they're told, but I wish sometimes she'd be a bit more like
them. You'll be ready for your tea soon, won't you, Jane?" she added in
the cheerful professional tone intended to deceive the sick.
"Yes, please," said Jane, without looking round.
"Here's Miss Hilton come all this way to see you," said the Matron a
little more sharply. "Can't you say anything to her? you may not have so
many friends come to see you as you expect, you know."
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