Bildungsromans; Feminist fiction; Women -- Employment -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Yet, she was neither cold nor careless, stern nor selfish, but ready to
share all the joys and sorrows of those about her; and when advice was
asked she gave it gladly. Christie had won her heart long ago, and now
was as devoted as a daughter to her; lightening her cares so skilfully
that many of them slipped naturally on to the young shoulders, and left
the old lady much time for rest, or the lighter tasks fitted for feeble
hands. Christie often called her “Mother,” and felt herself rewarded
for the hardest, humblest job she ever did when the sweet old voice
said gratefully, “I thank thee, daughter.”
Things were in this prosperous, not to say paradisiacal, state, when
one member of the family began to make discoveries of an alarming
nature. The first was that the Sunday pilgrimages to church were
seasons of great refreshment to soul and body when David went also, and
utter failures if he did not. Next, that the restless ambitions of all
sorts were quite gone; for now Christie’s mission seemed to be sitting
in a quiet corner and making shirts in the most exquisite manner, while
thinking about—well, say botany, or any kindred subject. Thirdly, that
home was woman’s sphere after all, and the perfect roasting of beef,
brewing of tea, and concocting of delectable puddings, an end worth
living for if masculine commendation rewarded the labor.
Fourthly, and worst of all, she discovered that she was not satisfied
with half confidences, and quite pined to know all about “David’s
trouble.” The little needle-book with the faded “Letty” on it haunted
her; and when, after a pleasant evening below, she heard him pace his
room for hours, or play melancholy airs upon the flute, she was jealous
of that unknown woman who had such power to disturb his peace, and felt
a strong desire to smash the musical confidante into whose responsive
breast he poured his woe.
At this point Christie paused; and, after evading any explanation of
these phenomena in the most skilful manner for a time, suddenly faced
the fact, saying to herself with great candor and decision:
“I know what all this means: I’m beginning to like David more than is
good for me. I see this clearly, and won’t dodge any longer, but put a
stop to it at once. Of course I can if I choose, and now is the time to
do it; for I understand myself perfectly, and if I reach a certain
point it is all over with me. That point I will not reach: David’s
heart is in that Letty’s grave, and he only cares for me as a friend. I
promised to be one to him, and I’ll keep my word like an honest woman.
It may not be easy; but all the sacrifices shall not be his, and I
won’t be a fool.”
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