He was not. He was a simple, single-minded man, unaccustomed to the
ways of flirtation, and utterly uncomprehending any of the mysteries
of the craft. He had felt naturally proud of the notice which Lady
Caroline had taken of him, had written of it to Marian, attributing
it, as he honestly thought it was due, to Lady Caroline's superior
education and greater love of books attracting her to him for
companionship. He was by no means an observant man, as but few
students are, but he had noticed, as he thought, a certain amount of
freedom in manners generally at Westhope, which was very different
from anything he had previously seen. He ascribed it to the different
grade of society, and took but little notice of it. He must, however,
have been more than blind not to have seen that in Lady Caroline's
conduct towards him at the time of the accident there was something
more than this; that in that whispered word, "Walter!" and the tone in
which it was whispered, there was an unmistakable admission of a
sentiment which he had hitherto chosen to ignore, and which he
determined to ignore still.
Walter Joyce was but human, and it would be absurd to deny that his
vanity was flattered. He had a sufficient feeling for Lady Caroline,
based on gratitude, and nurtured by general liking, to experience a
certain compunction for her, placed as she must inevitably find
herself by his mode of treatment of her; but regarding that mode of
treatment he had never an instant's doubt. He had been brought up in
far too strict a school of honour ever to palter with himself for a
moment, much less with any one else. His heart was in Marian Ashurst's
keeping, his liege love, and in not one single pulsation should it be
false to her. All this he had thought out before the interview with
Lady Caroline, and his conduct then was exactly as he had prescribed
to himself it should be. He took no credit to himself for his coldness
and reserve, nor indeed did he deserve any, for he felt as calmly and
coldly as he acted. There was but one person in the world with power
to make his heart leap, his pulses fill, to rouse his energy with a
look, to cloud his hopes with a word. Why was she silent, then? She
could not know how critical the time might have been, she should never
know it, but he felt that he wanted her advice, advice on the general
questions of his life, and he determined to write to her in a way that
should elicit it.
Thus he wrote:
"Westhope, Friday.
"MY DEAREST MARIAN,
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