When she was alone Mrs. Ashurst pondered long and earnestly over what
she had just heard. Of course, the question of Marian's future--and to
her parents as well as herself the future of every girl means her
marriage--had been often thought of by her mother. She and her dead
husband had talked of it in the summer evenings after supper and
before retiring to rest, the only time which the school-work left for
James Ashurst to devote to himself, and even then he was generally
rather fatigued with past, or preoccupied with growing work. It was
very general, the talk between them, and principally carried on by
Mrs. Ashurst; she had wondered when Marian would marry, and whom; she
had gone through the list of eligible young men in the neighbourhood,
and had speculated on their incomes and their chances of being thrown
with Marian in such little company as they kept. She had wondered how
they at home would be able to get on without her; whether she herself
would be able to undertake the domestic superintendence, as she had
done in the old days before Marian was of an age to be useful; whether
Marian would not settle somewhere near, where she might still take an
interest in her old work, and many other odd and profitless
speculations, to which the dominie would give an affirmative or
negative grunt or comment, wondering all the while how he was to meet
that acceptance which he had given to Barlow, and which became due on
the twenty-seventh, or whether his old college chum Smith, now a
flourishing physician in Cheltenham, would lend him the fifty pounds
for which he had made so earnest an appeal. But all this seemed years
ago to Mrs. Ashurst as she thought of it. For many months before her
husband's death the subject had not been mooted between them; the cold
calm external impassibility, and the firm determination of Marian's
character, seemed to her mother to mark her for one of those women
destined by nature to be single, and therefore somewhat fitted for the
condition. A weak woman herself, and with scarcely any perception of
character, believing that nearly all women were made in the same mould
and after the same type, Mrs. Ashurst could not understand the
existence of the volcano under the placid surface. Only gushing,
giggling, blushing girls fulfilled her idea of loving women, or women
lovable by men. Marian was so "odd" and "strange," so determined, so
strong-minded, that she never seemed to think of love-making, nor
indeed, her mother thought, had she been ever so much that way
disposed, would she have had any time for it.
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